Today Is Saturday July 31 2021, This Is What Happen

 With heat this summer, we really haven't had all that much smoke from the wild fires. Until today. When I went out and got mail I grab the camera. Took quick photo, can't see the mountains. There starting to talk about rain up coming week, although nothing over 45% and some thunderstorms. With the dryness and if there to much lightning. It could strike up wildfire.

Cut this 4 yellow strips for quilt I been working on, when I say working on. It also slow going. Like most projects, I do. Anyhow I tried that little room air condition, mention in YESTERDAY POST. We gave it try in kitchen as hubby and I was wrapping ground beef. The cool breeze made it more comfortable. But wouldn't cool down entire kitchen. Think it would be good in my creative and or computer room. No promise! I hope this will give me a chance to work on my projects. Like start sewing strips together.

Green fabric sampler. My next color in the stack is orange. Also got grocery bag full of these green fabrics, with few other colors toss in. Which is given to our local quilting gilded. They do sewing project for different charities. 

Coffee is on and stay safe.

 

 

Friday July 30 2021, This Is What Happen

 Not a big shopper, and living small town it sometime hard to find things you need, or thing you want.  lot of time I get things off of the net. Well I order five items from Amazon. Shortly I will show you three of the items. The reason I don't get much from Amazon is, how our tax system is set up. 

Got this small room or person air condition. We don't have central air condition and when we put our central heat, it rarely got to 95(35) and this summer, few times it was above 100(37) So we have a window unit, and in our living room a portable standing one. So there rooms that isn't being cooled. One is the craft room and computer one. I would guess room is 144 square feet.  I don't see it doing much in room much larger than that. Or use let say 8 to 4 feet from person. Who ever cooking it could help keep the heat down, no break for the cook.   With work and such I don't know how often I will be using it. But if I want to something creative I won't be chase out by the heat in room. Regis got one and he has his right next to him. It help keep his personal space cool. Doesn't do much for large space

Short while ago Regis bought a monoscope and he figure out, he need mount to use with his phone. So he ask me to order one for him. He gives me the money for his items he gets. Sure hope he enjoy it.

Majority of people around here hardly took Covid serious. When we was first ask to mask up, not all that many wore mask. Maybe three or four times one might of seen 20% of people in store having a their mask on. Usually it was under 10%.  In a store. Plenty of Karen and Richard here. Just slightly over 25% of people here been fully vaccinated. So one doesn't know where this virus is heading. When the virus first came out the Trumpeters sure made no effort to protect anyone. I ask my self, do I have obligation to put on my mask once again and protect someone who don't give rats patootie about me or anyone else.

It been a long time since I got an urinary infection, and Liz told me about AZO  It seem to helping quite bit. Question Time...What five words or less would us use to desire your area? No sentence. The words I would use to explain my area is gorgeous, friendly, ingrain, and conservative.

Coffee is on and stay safe 

 

Today Is Thursday July 29 2021, This Is What Happen

Super hot here in west. And the Covid variant, Delta is going up. I hear they're talks about paying people covid vaccine. How about charging those who vote trump for the vaccine shots. I'm trying to not say much, Both Murphy and I have family and friend who refuse to get their vaccine. But it hard.  

Today I took Regis down to library in Sandpoint, I know he got quite few movies. One was newest the adventure of BILL and TED. But I don't recall the others one he got. I'm weird I like DOCUMENTARY FILMS The two movies I got is IRIS by Albert Maysles and TATTOO THE WORLD by Ed Hardy. 

Had all sort of conversation with my client. Today is conversation on micro chips and drones. See Regis got an item with my order from Amazon. He was wondering if it was coming by drone. We both couldn't image anything being ship by drone, up here in North Idaho. Someone would sooner or later shoot it down. As best of knowledge the postal service doesn't use drones. But if it came to some time future postal service using drones, and it shot down. Oh what a mess. About our chip talk, not talking about chips one eat. There country who had very positive RESULT with Micro Chips. I see a lot of benefits. There plenty of people who needs to be NAME. If for some reason I become missing and for what every reason I couldn't speak for my self. I would want my love one know my well being or where about. And plus I wouldn't have any trouble having basic medical info either. Sometime one get separate from our identifications. Don't believe in mark of the beast. There been all sort of theory on the mark of beast. Some are laughable.

Coffee is on and stay safe 

Today Is Wednesday July 28 2021, This Is What Happen

 

Will be using NUMBER 4 and word I will be using is "Agenda" 

The wind started to pick up, and the group had plan to take trip to the next town. One thing on the agenda was to go to the new exhibit at local art show, they was featuring new woman artist, who done less three shows. But with wind starting to pick up and darker clouds looming to the east. The group was wondering if they could be some flash flooding. So one minute they said "Let's go" and next minute they say "Let not go" So after a while they took out there pendulum and see if it would spin clock wise and it went crazy. So the group load up in SUV and headed out. So they didn't have to change any part of their agenda.

The window people coming tomorrow. So for a few days Hubby and I will bring out the mattress into living room. Me, personally I would use the cot. I better not hear the old hubby grip about any ache and pain from moving the mattress. It will good to finely have all the windows done. Got anther quilt block ready to go to embroidery. Moving on to "Alice in Wonderland" With the heat, it hard to get anything done. But I do mange to get a little done. 

It looks like we might be ask to mask up again. At this point our covid rate is still moderate in our area, and about 25% been fully vaccinated. Here in Boundary County. Well when we were first ask to mask up. Both Hubby and I followed the CDC guide line. But they were time we was harassed for being mask wearers. So I figure those who isn't vaccinated are Trumpster and they made no effort to protect me at all. When the time comes for me to put back on my mask. Even how I feel or my thoughts of Trump. His supporter deserve respect, even if they didn't respect me.

Coffee is on and stay safe

 

Today Is Tuesday 27 2021, This Is What Happen

 Didn't get chance to blog about the garden and such yesterday. Here in west we're going though a drought and plenty of wildfires. Although not here. Fires that it is. Some water system is struggling here. 

Well Tuesday is usually I do my "Well Being" post. And my letter will be "L" and I will posting my "L" at end of post. As many you know I join OA (Overeaters Anonymous) and last night was the first time I shared. The part of working with higher power doesn't bother me. But what bothers me they was no feed back. I shared about being "Be Little" and honestly I don't know if someone could give me an answer or not.

Haven't had a chance to any more in my work book. As group we finish up with chapter one and two. I need to read chapter two and answer question from chapter two. Next Tuesday I will share  one of the question and answer.

Pretty well holding my own. Haven't done any real walking. So hot. I've done the tread mill and find them boring. Although my stretches been off and on. I guess more honest word for my exercise and stretches is "Off and On" 

Yesterday late after noon hubby and I was watching a DVD on "Eugenics" from "America Experience" an "PBS". Been sitting on fence about doing my traits or looking in to my health genes. Confession time...I didn't want to see if they was possible I could have genic trait of awful disease and I could possible horrible death. I would guess most of us when our time to go. We just go to sleep and not wake up. So they give 35 traits and I will guess they will keep adding more. So the first one "Endurance Fitness" It says..."You have some DNA difference that are  commonly found in elite endurance athletes" Although then there the factor of choice and I have real did nothing to be an endurance. I have little very little interest in doing  BLOOMSDAY. But I would like to walk the route. But I know even not as an endurance athlete. If I worked on my endurance slowly it would be all around beneficial, in so many ways. When I was doing my routine I could see the benefits of having work out. 

My "L" word is "Love" and first things comes to my thought is "Love God whole hardly" and next one is "Love  your self as thy neighbor" There been time in my life both of this command has been struggle. Confession time...At time I have to say I was upset with God (Higher power) that I would honestly say I didn't love God. I don't always treat my self right and also there been time I feel I don't deserve love. But mostly self love. I think at time it hardest to love one self. For many reasons. I'm working on self love. By the way I don't know if self love should or shouldn't be easy. 

Coffee is on and stay safe

  

Today Is Sunday July 25 2021, This Is What Happeni

 Just finished up ironing some fabrics, that I shared on my last video. But only half of my place is air condition. I will be straight forward. The heat in kitchen ran me out, iron didn't help.

The other day hubby went into Auto zone and got some items for the pickup. Well the cashier was telling Murphy that the government is spying on us. I have to wonder why these people think they are so important or what they're guilty of. Know one is interested in my life. It pretty darn uneventful. The only one I would say that seems to be interested in me, is my search on internet that they want to sell me something.  Over facebook the five ads are jewelry company, Art therapist, promptly journal, Safari hunt, and craft class. 

Going to take three comment and shine a little more light on it. 

I known I shared BRAIN'S HOME and his resent comment was..."The only hair our dad get in his mouth is cat hair" Well there plenty of cat hair. at our place I thought of collecting and spinning. Not really. 

I don't believe I every shared VIX and her comment was..." I loathe shopping malls, I'd probably go mad if I was trapped in one over night...I don't care about shopping in general. If I have to go in a bigger big store for some reason. I know what I want or need. I don't wonder about and look at other things. I guess last time I look around at Walmart, was for some basic summer clothing items. But once I found what I want and took care of my other shopping I was in and out. Hubby says "You can be send into a story and come out with money left over"  Personally I like shopping at mom and pop stores, and thrift store. Anyhow malls don't seem to be as big as it once was. 

And last one for this time around will be RIVER and her comment was "Nothing should be done with lickety split speed, expect races. Take your time, it will get done eventually"... I heard the expression slow and study wins the race. Confession time...I feel guilty not having the energy after work not to continue or get much done at home. I know I will be cutting my hours in a few years, so that will give me more time. 

I guess this is good of time telling more about my working plan or not to work. If something happen to Liz and or Regis I won't go look for anther client or job. The main reason, at this time we only have 25% vaccinated in our county. Unless more people get the covid vaccine. Than I could be singing a different tune. I have done count down to count down to retirement. Well my plan is my official count down will be actual start January 2 2023. Basically I will cutting my hours by fourth until the end of 2023. The reason I'm doing it this way. Is give company a chance to find someone. Well when my friend Alice retire from personal care. She called the company and ask them to find a replacement and she end staying on longer than she want it. Not sure if they couldn't find someone or didn't try. Well the only reason she got out of personal care giving. Her client died. So I figure when I cut my hours down by half they will be looking for my replacement. See they're a shortage of inhome or personal care givers. The three reason is lack of decent wage, I'm at $14.99 and quite a few places around here pays less, the bureaucracy of it, and their client who are ABUSES TO THEIR CAREGIVER Their people who known to abuse there caregiver, and after a while they can't find a caregiver. I understand that people have off days. But I make it clear to all my clients. If you become abusive, I will walk out and it doesn't matter what your doing. That pretty much the only recourse we have. 

I order a few things from Amazon, like 5 items. I honestly don't get much off of amazon. Well I was going on about Jeff Bezos, not paying his fair share in taxes. So here is one of items I purchase was a SAN DISK  Not total sure what I will  being doing. But I'm sure I will be doing.

Coffee is on and stay safe

Today Is Saturday July 24 2021, This Is What Happen

 Rolled up ball of fabric, I like them rolled up into a 1 to 2 pound ball. The one above weighed in at 1 pound and 7 oz.

I did some picking up around the place, paid up a few bills. Our youngest son Bart and his father in law Cyrus came up. With Granddaughter Wendy. She will be 3 next month. Murphy has this favor little spot we go hiking down into, ravine of Myrtle  Creek, and that where Bonners Ferry get there water from. Well Bart seems a little offish, Their some issue with the oldest. And they don't know what going on. Well it doesn't matter I love all my grandchildren. 

Paid up few bills, and line up my quarter federal taxes. Once again my table became a magnet. Murphy scrub down toilet.

Coffee is on and stay safe

Today Is July 23 2021, This Is What Happen

 

It been a while since I post a video, looks like 2 months ago I done a video.  I keep want to put in one of my post, about my husband shopping at Auto Zone. 

Coffee is on and stay safeday

Thursday July 21 2021, This Is What Happen

 I was making a video, well my SD card ran out of space. So delete some photo. Thinking I could redo my video. Well than my camera batteries went dead. The video I was making was showing the white elephant fabrics I got different place, I'm slowly organizing my craft stuff. But mainly fabrics. So looks like Friday I will do the video again. Well I did the video, and will post it tomorrow.

Some of fabric I get is so full of strong perfume. Which gives me an asthma issues. So I raise them in white vinegar, with water. And let them air dry. This time they weren't much as small pieces. Most of it was a good yard or more. But they was a few smaller pieces

I would like to replace the rug under my table. I think it would be cool to have a crochet rag rug. But I have quite a bit of old sheets and pillow cases, that could be used. 

Got a chance to do a little organizing on my craft supplies. Well had a couple of phone calls one from my son Bart and it possible he and his father in law and the oldest is coming up camping. And one my friends I grew up with. We're going up to there camp over in Newport Washington.

I work 32 hour week, I call having more zap in my step, and when I come home now, I'm tired. But I did mange to get a little done, around the place. Not sure if phone calls was blessing or what. I was hoping to get a little more done. It didn't happen.

Coffee is on and stay safe

Today Is Wednesday July 21 2021, This Is What Happen

 

Don't know how well my story or how well I handle number 29. I didn't sleep all that well during the night. My back hurt, had leg cramps, pee every 1 to 2 hours, and kept dreaming. I was pretty well exhaust when woke up. Got up and went to work. 

1. If you got trapped in the mall overnight, what would you do there?  Describe all the fun hijinks you could have.

I don't how comfortable I would actually be. Since I know there all sort cameras watching us in malls now. I would get my phone and call someone to let me out. If I could have free range. I hope some would be kind and give me money amount that I could use in the mall. One thing I hope there trampoline and roller skates, so I can jump and skate about. As for items I would be interested would be more practical items, undergarments' hygienic items, cleaning items for house, household paper items and possible clothing items. Depending on what actually need. As for frills I would be looking at fabrics, crafty items, craft tools, and purse. If I don't have permission I wouldn't take any of items. Let say the mall gave me $200 free items. I wouldn't go a penny over. Although If I was up to let say $198 I wouldn't expect $2 in change back. But if I went over I would make sure the difference is made up. In all honesty I would be bored to tears in mall.

Finish up organizing some of my red fabrics, and giving some to Poet, Regis neighbor. It look like soon I will be going though a white elephant bag of fabrics. And hopefully sew a few blocks for my 2 inch squares. Well it moving forward.

Regis and I went to Sandpoint and he need some supplies for his Zofran injection stuff. Such as needles and syringes. Our local area doesn't have medical supplies store. Anther medical thing would benefits people here medical would be dialysis center. As Regis was getting his supplies, I found this rock. I will hide in my community.

Coffee is on and stay safe 

Today Is Tuesday July 20 2021, This Is What Happen

 Finding some letter in the alphabet is easier to go though when it comes to "well being" I am on letter K and the word is "Kind" and how I feel and my attitude towards it. Question time...What was last kind thing you did for your self. I like giving my self a moon bath when the moon is full.

I start to do "The Twelve Step Work Book Of  Overeaters Anonymous" and each chapter I will take random question. So let start with Chapter one "We Admitted We Were powerless Over Food---That Our Lives Had Become Unmanageable" ....How have I used food to escape life's problems?  Yes, Don't want to deal with my emotions either negative or positive. 

Statement time...I was that generation when "Children Should Be Seen and Not Heard" 

Been pretty much holding my weight and with this heat. It hard to get going on exercise. Although I been doing my stretches' on even days and on odd days on tread mill. Let see I haven't done fit day. Only once I ate after 7 in the evening. I don't sleep well on empty stomach.

 Work been going ok. Although I'm so ready to retire. I'm trying not to feel so disappointed in my self, not getting my projects done with "Lickety Spilt Speed" There coming along. Got more fabric organized and should be finishing up with anther embroidery quilt block.  Plus I'm guessing I might even have chance to get anther video done, of going though a white elephant bag of fabric. This month.

Few items went to thrift store or the trash can.

Coffee is on and stay safe

Today Is Monday July 19 2021, This Is What Happen

 A few tomatoes have ripen on bush. Getting fresh raspberries, and smoke from forest fires rolled in. I hear Canada might be opening there borders for travel who vaccinated. 

Coffee is on and stay safe 

Today Is Sunday July 18 2021, This Is What Happen

 I usually just randomly pick some. past post, hopefully add a little more life. I been talking about cost of living here. As many figured out I'm close to retirement. FRUMPY PROFESSOR made a comment Is $640 available in your area that you could find a place to live and be comfortable living in? It seems if I recall you live in the Northwest. region and I fear that region 's rate is pretty hefty. General I would have to say the answer would be "NO" they aren't anything for $640. Unless one get some type of housing assistance and we don't qualify. Which is based on your income and asset. Depends on housing programs the income and your asset would be slightly different. Although not that much. The Apartment Regis is in, senior and disable ones. He pays 193 a months and he handles his own utilities. it base from his income of $893 and he can deducted any out of pocket of medical cost. Last I heard the maximum they could charge for those apartment was $650 a month. There not bad apartment. Than there housing voucher and each area is different. Once you get your voucher and each area will have the amount you could possible spend on housing...Example one bed room $425, two bed room $.500, three bed room, $575 and such. And which don't includes your utilities. So one would find something under this price and than for rent and utilities can't be over 40% of your income. Well I don't know anyone who has housing voucher who don't something extra under the table. Liz pays $440 a month, her apartment regular rent is $745. Her income  is $893 and actually her part of the rent and utilities should be no more than $357. And she over by $83 and that not cost of utilities and not sure how that being covered. Wish I had the price allowance for HUD rentals. Their so under priced. Like Social Security benefits for death of $255 dollars.

YOGI made comment about Covid. Nice pic!!

I am way behind on my stuff for the home. I'd rather take photos, ride my bike, work out, read blog posts, and make blog posts.

I didn't know Idaho had such a low vaccination rate. Oklahoma is at about 39% fully vaccinated and just over 50% for at least one shot. So many people I know say that they just don't want to because they don't think they'll get sick. The legislature wants to outlaw hospitals or any other business mandating vaccinations. Good thing the outlook was different when we were fighting small pox.
Take care!!

And the other comment I would like to share is from RIVER It's a shame people choose to not get vaccinated. My niece is the same, won't get her shots. I hope nothing happens to her, she has a little boy almost 9 and there's no way I could take him in.

I think vaccinations for a plague such as this one should be mandatory.
I thought that gold and black scrap was a pretty table mat.

We're such a divide society. Our LIEUTENAUNT GOVERNOR. is something else. She want to BAN MASK and calls the vaccine and she calls it MEDICAL TYRANNY

and I hear only about half our hospital staff is vaccinated. Oh our Ms McGeachin drove around with bible in hand. She nut case. Than we have AMMON BUNDY running for Governor of Idaho. There two shakes in stick we could get any slightly left to win. So our best bet would be Brad Little our current one. So Qunella was taking to someone we both and he refuse to get the shot. Because it making people going sterilized. I don't know if my youngest son or his wife gotten the vaccine or not. Her parents leans toward one who aren't for vaccines. Although I can't be total sure. Both of my sons have good decision making skills. So hopefully my youngest one and his wife got their covid shots. They have 2 girls and Grandparents don't make good parents. It complete different between being a parent and grandparent. Hope nothing happen.

Hubby and I went up to Ball Creek. He want out of house and get away from heat. So we was talking about retirement. He knows and understand that something happens to my present client. I won't go and look for new ones. With vaccine rate being so low. Ceramics was brought up. I don't know how thrilled I am about having people coming into my place to do ceramics. Look at vaccinated rate.  Any how I told him I understand the only place I know I can get dry clay would be on the coast. And would leave my pour table in the garage/shed. Couldn't cast in colder months. But I don't about handling the bigger molds. Well there some things needs to be done on our place for retires. Got two windows to be replaced and that lined up. And our bathroom need some remodel, it small and if either one of us is a walker or wheel chair we would have issues getting around in the bathroom. Plus redo our floors though out our entire house. There other things could be done, I call them frills. But three main things is listed just above. I did mention about putting a creative studio in basement which wouldn't take all that much. Murphy wasn't against and he actual thought it was not a bad ideal. 

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Coffee is on and stay safe 

Today Is Saturday July 17 2021, This Is What Happen

 I sometime don't know what I want to post about. Or in which order. It doesn't really matter. 

So glad to see my son Sawyer and his family. This is his youngest Bree, and my youngest grandchild. We spend a little time at Beach in Sandpoint. And we were planning to do a family photo, with my youngest son Bart family. But his daughter Claudia end up in E.R with what they thought was a seizer and had M.R.I and it showed nothing. So some other test will be ran, although sure of the date. So they will be other times for a family photo.

Had a chance to organize some of my fabrics, and even cut some strips for a quilt I been working on for dawn of time. Well it seems like it. This fabric I would call gold and black. I have a tote of black scrapes. But no gold. I'm not sure if I honestly need to a gold tote. I will wait and see if I get more golds shades. Some time my golds leans toward yellow or orange.

It been a while since I did any tarot and or oracle cards.

This time I let an oracle card. fall out. The dance one fell out, and it talked about celebration, and dance is an creative out let. I never took dance. But I recall when I was younger in back yard, I thought I was and airplane. I would run the entire length of our back yard, as I was going to take off. Than I would also do tilts and other movements. Maybe some place in my head, I was leaving and escaping.  I'm working on giving my self permission to celebrate joy without food or guilt.  

Not going show or share my complete lay out. The hey you "cards" getting my attention. 

Statement time....I feel of over whelm and frustrate.  I let my creative supplies get out of control. And I know there no way I could put in entire day of cleaning and organizing it. I work little over 30 hour week. But during the week I could  put in let say around  45 minutes per week towards taking care of my creative supplies. And then I would have more time for my creative outlet, and less frustration. I have tools to be organize. Than also I let my self be tided and don't move forward. 

Moon is emotional and than there is strength to pull or push one self though an obstacle in one life. But when we can't deliver it on our own. We need to call in a love one. But than we our responsible for our choices in our life. Their time we should be on our own and other time not. 

Still low rate of vaccine here. Our county hasn't made 25%. Than our state is not quite at 37% yet. Unless our vaccinated rate goes up. If something happen to Regis and or Liz. I won't be looking for anther client. Hubby said "I don't blame you" Than I've known children sneaking off to get there shots and so there parents, won't find out. These are grown children. Than on other hand I know parents of grown children sneaking off to get shots. Ate Breakfast at Kootenai inn, and ran into someone we known for long time. There children also grown and two of there kids, refuse to get vaccinated. I say there nothing can be done. It not like there little kids and you haul them in to get their childhood vaccines.

Spaghetti for dinner, and still hot and dry. It look like there no relief in next week or so.

Coffee is on and stay safe

Friday July 16 2021, This Is What Happen

 Plans was to meet at the CITY BEACH IN SANDPOINT, and spend sometime with my son and their families. Including a grand girls. It look like my youngest son isn't going to make it. I'm disappointed and there nothing I can change or do anything. Planning to do a family photo, I like to one about every five years. 

Sawyer and his family came up. But Bart family didn't I understand possible my oldest Granddaughter possible had some form of seizer, possible. I tested Molly and find out what going on.

With this heat I seem to do a little bit this and that. I start to go though my black fabrics. Well I finish it. Although I have two shades of black left over, and I wrap four fabrics on cardboard. I'm sure in messy stash I have more blacks. 

Using a toothbrush package for straight edge. I find the register to keep track of money in and out. The ones I make. Seems to work the best. 

As many you know I don't use people real name. Unless there gone on to the other side. Content is always true. So some people in my blog, I hardly mention. Only here and there. Like Murphy Nephew Sam and Amy his wife. Since the pandemic we haven't seen them. Hubby talk to him a while back and they were taking it serious. 

Coffee is on and Stay safe
 

Today Is Thursday July 15 2021, This Is What Happen

I got a stab at a few things. Working a 30 hour week. By end of day I can feel it, and really feel by the end of the week. the heat doesn't help.

I went though my scrapes of pink fabric and cut them in to smaller samplers, for my sampler pieces. I add a new pink. Than I did a little embroidery the second block is almost done. 

Next color I will be going though is my blacks. I will give Regis some of my blacks. Oh and I have anther roll of pinks. 

I do a little chores around the place. I set the timer for 13 minutes and do something useful around the place. I wouldn't say I make leaps and bounds. But possible we don't dig my self in deeper.

Most evening we watch PBS News Hour and I like Canvas..."art and culture", and I wonder why other news show doesn't offer an art segment. Plus our toilet plug. Going to use the plungers.

Coffee is on and stay safe 

Today Is Wednesday July 14 2021, This Is What Happen

 

I will be using NUMBER 10...Write about a major event in your life that made you feel grown up....I real don't think I have one event that made me feel grown up. But I have basically been a responsible person, I grew up in functional alcoholic family. My dad was the alcoholic. He went to work, did work for the rail road for 50 years. He was quite moody and wonder if he had something a form of depression, he was quite moody. As long as I known my day he wasn't so depressed, that he couldn't function. But doing family history my  dad was abandonment  3 times I know of. My Granddad Clarence disappeared and  left his wife and son. I know he went down in southern states, and also did power line in west. I guess he was married to Anna for short time and she was killed in train wreak. I'm guessing shortly afterward he came out West and married a lady name Louise, on Washington coast. They was married for some years, and I read there divorce papers. She mention his moodiness. That he married my mom and they had me. She had strength. Plus my mom had a terrible fear of lack of money. Well back to me being grown up. One time I was young and dumb and I got a few tickets and had to face a judge. My dad had passed away. I called up my mom and ask if I could have some money. And I was stupid or honest enough to say what I want the money for. Her answer was simple "Who got the tickets" and hung up. I went to court and had to face a judge, by my self. Like any adult would of. I have to say I felt so a lone. It seem that other people had other people in their corner. I never had any dealing with the court since that.

Regis neighbor gave me some pistachios. His neighbors are Mormons and I'm guessing the church or a member gave them a bag. Found out their church is doing some type of quilts to send out. So this evening after work I work on cut sample and organizing my pinks. I'll donate some pink cotton fabrics. 

Regis neighbor he worked with Murphy at Clifty Nursery. He retire and she has some type of learning disability. So this was some time and I believe she never worked and if she did. Nothing real went to her social security account. She gets SUPPLEMENTAL SECURITY  INCOME because of his income from his regular social security she only get something like $90 a month. So between the 2 of them they get monthly income of $1,191. So his social security must be around $1,100 a month. I knew she said she got about $90 a month and this was some time ago. If she was single she would get $794 a month. Once or if he passes I would she would get his benefits. 

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Today Is Tuesday July 13, 2021, This Is What Happen

 Yesterday I talk about living cost and such, when we RETIRE. I went to two real estate site and our property value paper, our place average value is $275,400. And our living cost at this time isn't all that much. between putting $250 away each month to cover those quarterly bi yearly, and yearly bills. Our basically monthly to keep lights going , water flowing, and such things it cost us $300 a month. I know I didn't add food cost, and running a vehicle. I went to a HUD classes with client and they think your basic housing cost should be 40% of your income, and that includes all utilities. So by there standards and if my math is correct we shouldn't be paying more $640 a month for housing, this is rate would be once we're both retire. Two things I need to mention, we have other money save backed that we can be used. It not a lot, but it something. We don't live high on the hog. 

Weigh in day and last two weeks, I went down 2 pounds. I start back doing fitday and I will work on being more consistent. But with my work schedule haven't done much of my exercise, or walking. It 98 (36) 

I been to two OVEREATERS ANONYMOUS meeting. Since I new we reading though the OA 12 steps/12 tradition. Usual they read though the BIG BOOK. I didn't expect special treatment. But I'm thankful they willing to take extra steps.

Now on to alphabet count down. I had a trouble coming up something that start with letter "J" well it was last 24 hours since I came up with my letter j, "JOY" so I will do list of 5 items brings me joy

1. My family bring me joy
2. My friend bring me joy
3. My spiritual path bring me joy 
4. Nature bring me joy
5. Being creative bring me joy.

Work went fine, meant Qunella and Lalita for coffee and snack. We went to Georgia park. It been a while since I seen Lalita. She lost her husband 2 years ago. So she learning how to be on her own. And I also hair cut, cost me $15 but I gave her $5 tip

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Today Is Monday July 12 2021, This Is What Happen

 Hubby to care of bugs and such. He got stung by something like a yellowjacket. than their was issue with little ants. When doing hummingbird feeder, sugar water was dripped and brought in Ants. Plus hubby planted some beans, bush type.

Went to work and in past if something like this happen to Liz, she would of been more in crisis. She used some of her coping tools. Regis went to Emergency room, he had stomach pain. In past he was on Zofran and he got shot of it. Wednesday, he will see his regular doctor and his stomach issues can be brought up. 

Sometime Hubby and I need to weigh out the pro and cons of staying here. Neither one of social security isn't going to be gang buster. At this time Murphy get $838 for his retirement. And there $149 taken out for his medicare. Look like if I retire around 64, my social security will be some where between $800 and $1,000. So combine income will be around $1,600 So once retire things will be different as what we're charged for our service, such as Medicare. Some time down the road we will be able to get SLMB or something close to it. To rent the average apartment in Spokane would be $1,123. and in Medford it look like it $923. These are one bedroom apartments. We talk about things that we done to home to make life livable to our home. And what else needs to be done. The main thing reason for staying here our house is paid no mortgage. Most years since Hubby retired we got the state STATE CIRCUIT BREAKER. 

Hubby says he old. He out lived both of his parents by age. His mom was not quite 45 and his dad was 68 years old. So far Murphy out lived his dad by 2 years. 

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Today Is Sunday July 11 2021, This Is What Happen

 It Sunday so on this day I usual look at a few of my weekly post and talk about up coming week. Plus what every I want to, it my blog.

My first comment I will be sharing is from Marie  and her blog is called ISLAND MUSING and comment she left was " Teachers have such a huge impact on our lives. I wish it had been different for you"  This did happen and over the year I had to heal from it. I still have healing to do from it. But over time I gain tools. That mostly the emotional pain doesn't last as long.

My second comment I will be sharing is from Christine and her blog is called CHRISTINE'S BLOG and she left was " I miss thrift store. I should check if they started accepting donation again. Good question weather we would stay home in our home if our spouse dies. My Aunt did. Hmmm. I would want to."  Not much change in our area during the pandemic. We have three thrift store in our area. One is ran by the seventh day Adventist, and they pretty much was wide open. No plex glass up for there clerks, and no mass. Well I have to say they had a giant air filter for I guess people germs or what every is floating in the air. I know they believe in health life choices. And here there view on IMMUNIZATION . Usual the Seven day Adventist thrift store is last place I shop or donate. But they did pay for one of Regis medical cost and anther client which my friend has help her cost of plumber for a kitchen sink. Statement time...Maybe I should have a different look at them. Then there one called Mary Anne. Not sure what their thrift store is doing for community. Than there is one for adoption of pets. It help or cover cost for these pets. I wish they had funding for spade and natured  But they seem like nice people. I honest don't know if I would stay in my home after my husband died. He said if I went first he would stay in home. But I would a lease stay there a year, before I made choice.

My last comment I will be using is from TIME AND TIDE sorry I don't know the blogger name. But the comment left on my blog was "I have entered contest when I was in school. But not since. I must give it a try, I guess. Not much I enter in now, except the county fair. At this point I don't think I will enter any thing. Working takes up most of my week. Confession time... But I have looked on the net for different contest and for prize money But time is an issue for most thing in my life. Who knows once I retire. But once again it comes back to time.

Let go back to year of 2005 of September 13 and my post of that day was called "Better Future" and I post about one my client I took care of. She now lives across from Regis in same apartment complex. Yes Sawyer did grow up. Even today I feel like I guilty that I can't do it all. But I need to look more on what I do than not. Looks like the two left comment isn't blogging anymore. 

Not sure if other place have DEMOLITION DERBY but it bring in people from different areas. I'm sure some organization made money.

Hubby talk to his youngest brother today, his brother lives down in Oregon. I wrote one letter and it going to Wyoming Michigan. Pretty easy day, but I need a day off before I go back to work, mostly to regroup my sanity. Well earlier Regis text me and told me Liz son had told his mom, Liz that she wouldn't ever see her grandson again. And she was upset and want to cut her self. I got hold of one of her mental health professionals. Well they have some codependency that makes them unfunctional. Liz will be at her son and his family for long time or at Regis. I'm not talking about a few hours of visiting and going home. But for days, weeks, and even a month at time. I tell her she has the most expensive storage unit. See they see so much of each other and sooner or latter there a blow out among someone. But in few days they all apologized and it start all over again. See I go down and see Sawyer family 3 or 4 times a year, and only stay 3 or 4 days. Ends up being one day a month. Bart is so close I see him and his family one day a month. I believe in old saying "Company smell like fish after 3 days" and after that one will get on each other nerves.  We have what I would call healthy relationship with my adult son and their family.

Start to keep track of what I eat with Fitday, again. It plain I need to be more consistent. 

The heat can put damper on things. Our home don't have central air condition and only part of our home is being cooled. Plus the heat from work pretty much zap me. Anyhow it three in the afternoon and it 92.1(33.1) outside. But there things I can do in living room area or basement. I like being productive.

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Today Is Saturday July 10 2021, This Is What Happen

 

Couple of days a ago I got my stickers for lap top key board. Some of the print is fading away. I took half year of typing in high school, sophomore year. 10th grade. I think I end up with C+. My hubby types one finger. It works.

We took a drive up to Ball creek. Went up into the mountains to get a break from the heat. We left at noon and it was 90 than. 

The first spot we went we feed some CUTTHROAT these were small ones, I don't think any of them was over 4 inches in size.

I brought my pamphlet from those who joins OA. This pamphlet is for those new comers. Couple of line or words pretty well hit home. Compulsive food behavior, action plan with an eat plan. Also I brought up my Lewis and Clark journals. Clark so far seem to do more journaling than Lewis. It also known Lewis might of suffered from depression and ended up with syphilis.

Piers from and old bridge over Ball Creek, the road across is growing in with elder brush. 

Than we went to the rocky area.

On our way down we saw a young black bear. Two people drown in our Moyie River, in area of Kootenai river. Plus our town of Bonners Ferry is hold it demolition derby and it look packed. 

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Today Is Friday July 9 2021, This Is What Happen

 I thought I could do more, but working slightly over a 30 hour work week. I'm pretty much beat, well I do a little bit here and there. The heat doesn't help. Week from today, we might get down to 87 degrees. 

When I was driving home someone had bunch of Trump related items for sale. Clueless anything about who selling this crap. 

The other day Regis and I stop in at Restorium to visit LaWalla, she was in hospital and rehab for a little over a year. Now she in the Restorium. It use to be classify as board house at one time. Usually in winter a person would rent a room, and which included bath, meals, community room or some might say living room. And dinning room. Now it more of assisted living. Plus there short on staff and last I heard the pay rate is $11 an hour. 

LaWalla is pretty bang up. I guess during a storm LaWalla feel and couldn't get up and as the wind was burning and tree branches was falling on her. Some one later in the day found her. Try to convince her to go to the emergency room, and she refuse. So in week she ended up in the emergency room, found out her leg, hip, shoulder, and neck was broke. All on the right side. Her hands shook and she couldn't put her hair in a pony tail and I did a PEPPLE STYLE and her legs are twisted up. She waiting for her electrical wheel chair. 

So the conversation of Covid came up, LaWalla is one those who antivax, and who isn't a Trump fan. I told her I got my shot. I know it would take quite a bit of talking for me to convince her to get any type of vaccine. She doesn't even do her tetanus shot. Well to find out quite few of the staff haven't got there shot and plan not to. Our area still under 25%. Those who haven't got a vaccine I heard 70% no way, no how will get the shot. So what the other 30% haven't gotten there shot, I would guess there still on fence.

As many of you know I plan to retire some time in 2023. But I told my hubby if something happen to Liz or Regis with our vaccine rate being so low. I doubt I would even go look for job. He doesn't blame me. So when I have a no sympathy for those who choose not to get there shot, and they get what they deserve. When I think like that I feel guilty. Knowing some aren't Trump supporter and still choose not get shot. I have friends and relatives who haven't and I doubt they will get the shot. I wonder if my youngest son got his shot. But why worry nothing I can do about it. 

Clean behind Liz couch and laundered up Regis blanket. 

My eating habits during my working hours, needs work on. I'm pretty sure I will join OA and they want us to come up with eating plan, Since like acholic one doesn't need to fuel or feed the body. No real creative work either.

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Today Is Wednesday July 7 2021, This Is What Happen

 

Write about a time you won something and how it made you feel....A few time that I every been into competition I done quite good. The first one comes to mind is in Kindergarten and we were drawing item for circus and I drew the best clown and the teacher said I had excellent color combination and my drawing also showed balance. I don't recall how I feel. I have entered things in our local fair. I grew up in Spokane and enter in there fair and placed on some of my items. When I won I feel good and also embarrassed and I know two side of same sword. One year I entered Cinnamon rolls and I had Grand Champion and one of my class mate, told me I didn't make them and I bought them from a store. I look him in the eye told him "Go to hell" Well my parents wouldn't let me cheat. I showed my horse and won and didn't place. I mainly stayed local . I grew up in a solid middle class family and during the winter season as other people who showed there horses, went down to Nevada, California, warmer area. we couldn't afford to go. I'm sure at time I felt out of place that I was victims of economic. But some of these people parents had money that they  didn't  clean out the barn, it was hired. I had to shovel horse poop out of the barn and it went on my mom garden. When my horse Taurus was a year old out of about 50 horse, I place reserve champion in a halter class, well the reason I didn't get champion when I moved my horse away from the judge I had my lead to close to the halter, and I pulled the horse head, and Taurus didn't  travel straight. Lesson learn. Now the only reason I enter is our local fair, it fun to be part of a community. there a ribbon and little cash. I give the ribbon back and let them keep the cash. They have such ragged shoe string budget. So actual quite a few people donate their prize money back. Winning to me has a lot thought. But now I think competition should be fun. I try not to not think when I win something I work on "not to think or question that I'm un deserving" But I multi feeling when I win.  Question time...Do you enter in your local fair? 

Quite day at work, no one had doctor appointment. Most of the day I help Liz. I had treat and coffee with Qunella. After the news I will go out and do some cleaning inside of my car. 

I'm half way though the first book Journal of LEWIS AND CLARK and as far in book they still getting ready. Between Washington DC and City of Saint Louis there is about 840 miles, yet they haven't still left on there journey they haven't even made it to St Louis and so far they seem to get a long with the native people. this hasn't been always been this way in our history. We have some pretty ugly parts to it. 

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Coffee is on and stay safe. 

Today Is Tuesday July 6 2021, This Is What Happen

 Had to go back to JUNE 22 to see my last letter was "H" and it time to move on to letter "I" and the word I will using is "Individuality" and we're all not the same and some time it hard to take a good look at our self. And figure out what tools we need on our well being. I thought time was 60 or even by time was 40. I would of figured who I am. No I'm still in school of personal growth. I know I need accountability for my self and harming my self with food. I do this quite a few ways. I punish my self with food. I praise my self with food and I occupied my self with food. I should have a common sense healthy eating plan. But I don't stick with it. It doesn't need to be fancy or difficult. 

As a individual I fell off the wagon so many time. I went to T.O.P.S for accountability and being in group help me. When I fell off the wagon and I got back on it lot quicker and easier each time. But what bothers me with T.O.P.S is competitiveness. Confession time...I feel I don't deserve to so called receive an award or be the best. I feel more comfortable setting my goals and competing with my self. When I was in about fourth grade we had test I don't recall the subject. I got 100% and this teacher said I had to cheat because I wasn't smart enough to get that grade. So she send a note with me to give to principle. That I cheated. Well I knew if I got send down to the principle office and my parents found out. I would of got in trouble when I got home. Well the principle gave me lecture about cheating. My parents was never notified. So even to this day I will some how even smallest way self - sabotage. 

Plus there a lot of things I didn't do in school because of politics of competition

So only being to one meeting at O.A one thing I like is there no competitiveness in group. But also I need accountability and once again I can get at O.A Not sure if O.A is what I totally need or not. They suggest to go to six meetings before committing. 

Our local T.O.P.S group was wonderful and I learn so much and gain so much from them. But during covid our group has dissolved. And never started up. The close group is in Sandpoint and meet Monday morning and I still work and don't want to drive.  

Took Regis to Spokane to see his pancreas doctor for his 6 month check up. Than we stop in at doughnut shop on Division, CASUAL FRIDAY DONUTS and stop at a thrift store. I look at fabric and got nothing. Not saying I was tempted. But I did a purse and some blank cards.  Don't recall what Regis got. Stop by Liz son and got her bank card and went to Post Office and got a money order, and that took over to bank across the street, and had them deposit to her land lord account. I keep telling her she has the most expensive storage unit. Since she hardly home. Her daughter in law suggest she get cheaper place. Well it hard to find a place that takes HUD rental voucher. When she was in her deep creek cabins, she was hardly there either. I don't think it matter where she lived. I believe this will be a repeating pattern about being lone. I never seen her every stay at her hutch for more that three days at time. She either over at Regis or her son for weeks at time. It none of business. So I guess my journal is hearing about it. 

As over the weekend when we drove up Myrtle Creek. We need to discuss where we want to live. Well I know either one of us, will get everything we want or need. He ask me if I would stay in house if he died. I would stay a lease year before I made any major decisions on like sell of property. He said he would probably stay

Did a little extra scrubbing on kitchen sink.

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Today Is Monday July 5 2021, This Is What Happen

 Plenty of heat here in North Idaho, at noon it was 90 (32) it seems like between 7 and 8 in morning it in  the 70's. Walk out to garden to take quick peak at garden and every thing looks great, even the weeds. No flowers are bloom.

Since today is the day after our country birthday, some place was closed up on Monday. So I helped Regis unroll and place his new carpet, which he got at thrift store. But Liz was at her son place. She spends a lot of time there, and none been vaccinated. I still like to keep my odds in my favor. So Wednesday I will spend the day with her. Taking Regis to a doctor appointment in Spokane tomorrow and will try to take care of their business when I get back.

Went though some of cabinet in basement. Found quite a few manuals to different items we had, so they were tossed. Plus I went though property tax file, and every year we get this general letter from county  assessors and envelopes. I thought more would of had more items to be toss, to trash or to thrift store. But I do see a reduction.

I will be going to my first local overeaters anonymous this evening.

 

 

Today Is Sunday July 4 2021, This Is What Happen

 Today is our country birthday, it 245 years old. For today I think Happy Birthday America is just be fine. Considering political climate

I finished up my bullet journal for July. Confession time...I would keep to and complete my goals if I reference my bullet journal more. Did manage to list 25 project I would like to complete, and  will share the five I will be working on. I think there pretty simple, Some are in the basement, much cooler.So I will share 5

1. Clean file cabinets in basement
2. Go though the kitchen towel drawer
3. Sort pillow case and sheets (rag rugs) 
4. Fabric envelopes
5. Put furniture shampooer in wall closett

In my list of 25 I have 7 project that I have marked with a large *B* which mean "Big Projects" Since I'm still in workforce. I won't be able to sink my teeth into. But take stab at.

1. Get below 200 pounds 
2. Sort Fabruc in large quest room
3. Walk to the Orthodox Church
4. Oldest Granddaughter quilt
5. Ger down to 193
6. 2 inch square block

Decided to only review 2 comment from last week. And reflect a little more on it. 

My 1st comment I will be using is from ISLAND MUSING and the comment she left on my blog...

Poor baby. Our second granddaughter suffered too. She out grew it quickly but that time feels like for ever. when baby has colic. Neither one of my boys had colic, but I have heard from parents who babies suffered from it. I remember wishing for full night of sleep and hot meal.  

Then my 2nd comment came from came from SIMPLE LIVING WITH NANCY and comment she left was..I have tried many times writing on diaries. After a enteries, I will loose interested, so I gave up, no more diaries. Take care and stay safe. I start blogging when I was 45 years old. 1994 was first so called blog put out on the net. I thought of writing a diary or journal when I was young. But I was scared of my dad finding it. So I never kept one. Oh I kept one journal when we lived out bench, although I had to be in my 30's and not sure what every happen to it. I do enjoy blogging or for me it on line journal.

Hubby and I took a drive up Myrtle Creek, part Selkirk Mt. To get away from the heat. We walk down in to canyon. Saw a Mule buck, and one tiger lilly and quite a bit of Indain paint brush. Heard I believe was rock rabbit. 

With our two local papers the Herald and Times, and look like the times has anything written about our 4TH OF JULY celebration. 

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Today Is Saturday July 3 2021, This Is What Happen

 I walk down and look at the fire acciendent yesterday. Before it got to hot. I have to say the fire departments handle it quite well. Both local and department of lands. 

Today Is Friday July 2 2021, This Is What Happen

 Gee today is our wedding anniversay, we were married in year of 1988 and live together five years before. Yes I was expecting when I got married so I will say hubby and I been together for 37 years.

Yesterday Law of gravity did a post called 13 BLOGS and also did post in a DIARY STYLE. Confession time....I like journaling a lot better compare to doing a diary. More freedom. Yesterday as I was in Sandpoint I forgot to mench there painted fire hydrated. So I will be doing my own thing when it come to my blog. But not saying I will do a diary style entry.

Short day with Regis, just a little light house chores, bank and food for the weekend. Than over to Liz and she been in the same outfit. So I told her in gentle voice she need to have different clothes on before the weekend. And she said she would have different outfit on before I return on Monday. Her son that died in November 2021, had a breathalyer and we both did. I blew O.O and she blew a 0.17 and most state a 0.8 is considered drunk, here in United States. 

As a person leaving Bonners Ferry heading south, there a sort of big sign. "The election was rigged-Number 45 is still my president" I will try to get photo. 

When I came home I pass a fire truck and thought one of my cousin, once again burn her home again. If it was it would of been third time. The last time the fire department couildn't fighth it because of the bullets was going off and they had gas stored in side of their home. With a wood stove. Some people keep doing the same thing over and over and hope for a different result. It sign of insanity. Well it wasn't a farmer was bailing hay and the baler caught on fire, I understand a short in wiring cause it. Actual the fire real never went all that far. Fast acting of the fire department, and he got the baler discountied from the tractor. 

With this heat and now it in the 90's (32) and still it pretty much zap a person energy. I haven't done any exersises or walking. Well it mean I need to get up a little earlier. So I can complete my work out. My salt intake is up  bit. Starting to swell.

I just got text from local over eaters anoymous and there starting up, Monday will be my first meeting in person

I hear Warren Buffet RULE OF 5/25 can be used in everyday life. I can see how this would work. Make list 25 things you want to complete or accomplish and work five and I bet part of other 20 will fall into place.

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