Monday, May 31, 2010

Good Day

It amazing how one mood changes. Just like the wind bringing in or taking out. It seem some days I have more difficult with time with my mood swings I'm right down a bitch and I real can't stand my self. But to day I had a good day. I do believe it the change of life. You know when us women stop having period. I don't think I'll miss those days



My friend Quenella and us (Murphy and I) went Gardenia center for there Sunday Service. I won't go into much detail about the service. In a nut shell it was on how we see our self. Both in flesh and spirtiual being. I don't need or want to push my believe or judge any one peroid



On the way home we stop in at Yokes and Wal Mart. The only store we have here is Safeway and I refuse to let them have complete control of where I shop.
Anyhow they make crappy doughnuts at bakery. There prices are total outrages.
So I got some cantloupe from Yokes at .68¢ a pound I think or was it less.
Let me retrack Safeway isn't real the only store in town there a little store up North from Sharrons where I get my staples from like floor I got just over a 10 lbs of floor for $6.14 and I paid right around $5.00 for 5 pounds of floor




Well my friend is putting up a private barer between the neighbors and her self. There on top of the hill and they can pretty much look down into her home.
I suggest maybe she could grow some calamities on it. I notice her little veggie garden is head of mine. She gave us some spinach and I made a green salad for dinner using the spinish she gave us. Plus she gave us some endive to plant



One thing Quenella and I came to conclusion on starting flower beds it better to start on the small size. Unless one has plenty of time and money to fill the spaces up.
My yellow Iris are coming along nicely and the quack grass to
Qunella liked my yellow Iris so I'll dig her some later on in the year..



I don't know if I told you about we trying to grow artichokes this year.



Only two flowers are blooming now in the hodgepodge flower bed. A Medium size deep dark purple Iris and a purple/white irises

Saturday, May 29, 2010

Maybe This

Did you know! Or maybe this would be a better statement. It doesn't matter.



Tuesday the 25th I voted. Things pretty much went the way I wanted considering I vote in Idaho. I feel like in the primaries I get to pick the worst of two evils. Not voting is chance of letting high grade of crap come in. The man who won our represtive on the repulican ticket was Labador who advestive him self as true convesative. I have to say I'm not at all impress when it come to the general election I'll be voting for Mimnickk Who is who I believe is “Blue Dog Democrate”

Work I can't even real blame it totally on work. I been having a on going battle with wide very of mood swing and it seems I been fighting with depression. Statement time...I hate my job and love my client. I do care for them but I'm total burn out I'm trying to get control of that burn out feeling. After a day of work I sure don't want to come and clean house.
I know the last few weeks it been hetic with my friend Quenella not having a rig. But now she got a 75 yellow custom 10 chev pickup. So now she got wheels and I won't feel so over whelm.
This should get my life under control



I believe it was a week ago last Friday my friend Quenella and I went to a John of God service at the Gardenia center. It was healing serving. I'm not sure what a healing serving but they all seem different. I don't believe this one is what I was looking for but Honest time....I'm not sure what I'm looking for either
I would have to say I had a chance to do a good mediation. I had a chance to leave my self for a short time.
I could feel the spirits moving but here the strange things. One sit North in the gardenia center just the way the pews are and the spirits felt heavy on my left side. Which would be toward the west or Selkirk mountain range.
I even seen waves of reds coming and going. Confession time...I haven't seen colors like this sense I did Acid back in late 70 and early 80's
I had a chance to do some deep mediation but I don't agree with the rules after words of letting the spirit heals one self. No sex for 40 days, no pork and etc things.
Plus I feel something like this needs and opening and closing. To me this a very important things and one needs to have control of what they let in form the spirit world.


Quenella would like to have a local get together and do healing circle. When she was married she and her late husband Micheal went to the Spiritualist church on the coast of Washington.
I think it would be fun to share with like minded people. She suggest our place. I would be morridfied if some people I didn't know saw my home.
I'm doing better with keeping up on the place. The days I only have one client I set the timmer for 40 minutes and 30 minutes and clean after dinner. It help us maintain some what.
On my days off I get chance to clean but I haven't done a deep cleaning. I do what I call a fairly good surfs cleaning.



It been chilly in the mornings and now my yellow Iris are blooming. Plus got two loads of wash done, dishes done, counters wipe of and there stuff still on them and some what organized.
Let see I got my kitchen and dinning room floor moped. This was done in 40 minute time blocks and goofing off for 40 minuted

Monday, May 24, 2010

Not Cating My Ballot For

The 25th of May people of Idaho goes to the voting both to pick a candidate in the primaries. Here in Idaho one vote for a straight ticket. I tend to lean to more liberal ideals. But Idaho is a very conservative state. Most of the candidate runs as republican so in the primary I'll vote for the most liberal candidate on the republican ticket. This time the ones on the republican ticket is calling the other republicans “Liberals”



Well I know I won't be casting my vote for Rex Rammel Candidates who talks about lower taxes big time usual want to charge everything and add more to the deceit. One of the papers it talk about Rex doing away with our state income. Raising our sale tax to 7% and Idaho charges sale tax on food. I wouldn't have any trouble with a higher sale tax if they took it off of food. This real hurts the poor. Not knowing much on our tax income I know it usual not wise throw the baby out with the bath water. Plus he and other wants to play around with the 10th amendments to our Constitution



Donna Capurso is also one I won't be casting a ballot for. I'm affrid she to much like Rex Rammel and service could be cut so far back leaving our county up for a law suit.



The third person I won't be voting is Steve Tanner who running for Idaho State Senate Seat. Every so often he writes letters to the editor in our local paper and I say “What a right wing bigot” but on the other side of coin. When I write a letter to editor one could say “You pinko”



I can't aprove this or not but I believe that Tea Party
Then also Boundary County Property Owners Assoction Then also our local North Idaho Miltia

Saturday, May 22, 2010

How Can Spend Like This


As Murphy and I was in town doing our errands. We stop at one of our local thrift store which I knew there was a prelactor coffee pot both Murphy and I favor coffee in prelactor more then a drip pot.
So we picked up this prelactor for $8.99 and usual they sell retail for $40 to $60 depending on the size. I guess they go from and 4 to and 8 cup and this the 8 cup size.



As we were doing errands. We stop at Faith and let her try some goat milk. Her youngest Grandson Naday like it. The rest of her grandkids didn't care for it.
Both Murphy, his sister Faith is having there 40 year class reunion. Faith is letting them hold it at her bed and breakfast. So it costing us $45 for a couple. Faith daughter Quincy is having her 20 year reunion and there charging them $60 a person. I understand one day there going to go golf which I don't know if that including in the cost or not. Plus there having a dance and dinner. But there having a picinic for the classmate and the kids which cost them $15 a child.
I find this pricing pulling on what pocket strings quite hard. Murphy and I both came to the same conclusion if his class reunion cost like Quincy we wouldn't be going.



Well our bath towells are looking pretty thin. I need new ones and threw my points and this time my bank rewards I should get my towels for free. I got four bath towells for free when K-mart in sandpoint was going out. We did pick some up one time at wal mart and that was a while ago.

Saturday, May 15, 2010

Growing and Glowing


I sure hope I don't loose the love of gardening. Donna my client I should be calling a friend want me to start couple of earth boxes . I come home and I find getting my hands in soil is relaxing and a destresser for me. But I can total understand why she want to grow a few items. At this time we only have one store here in Bonners Ferry Safeway which is out rages in the prices.


My other client Murphette also loves gardening. I to should be calling her a friend. She talks about the smells from her grandmothers flower beds.



So resenty I plant some sweet williams. And I believe I add some dianthies in to a pot that she has on her front porch.
I dug up four small yellow star like tulips and place equel amount in my royal sunshine and hodge podge flower bed. I haven't yet receive any tulips to be put in the royal sunshine flower bed.




I notice that the Iris in the hodgepodge flower bed is starting to form buds. The Lilly of valley and star of bethlham are in bloom now. The Lillies are leaving their home below ground and reaching toward the sky.


Still the yellow tulips are still in full bloom in royal sunshine flowerbed. Looks like my purple tulips are ready to bloom. I notice that Murphette has some dark purple tulips are little different shape then mine. I'm going to ask if she would like to trade few of my yellow tulips for her purple ones.





I would say most of our trees are leaved out. The snow trees are in full bloom and smell sweet as every

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Rex's Dinner



I guess there quite a few tmes I step out of bounds at my job. I help Donna take care of her dog Rex. By making his dog food recipe Rex is pretty amazing and friendly ole guy. For a 11 year old dog he is in good health and great spirit.



Lot of the morning he and I go down to the ball park in Bonners Ferry and take a walk. Now they got the picnic tables back and some morning I take a few minutes to pray or mediate. Recently my mind and spirit feels so boggled down. But we walk most of the time and enjoy the taste, smell, and sounds of nature



This is some of the trouble I have with Medicaid and home-care areas. It basic set up for one not to get out of poverty. Also those who are disabled and ill not to really improve in there life.
Most of who gets SSI their checks are well under a thousand month. Grant they get other benefits like a discount in there rent, food stamps, and energy assidents.
I posted about how they keep these people down. Get this most of them our aloud to earn up to $50 a month and they will take dollar to dollar what they earn. If they earn more then $50 they take there SSI check which isn't hardly anything. So I can understand why Donna brother is helping her earn a few extra bucks. Or why some people have to earn money under the table. Simple because the rules have chance since President Johnson sat up Medicare and Medicaid in the early to mid 60's.
Plus Medicaid doesn't look at the entire family when going out and seeing what help there people need

Sunday, May 09, 2010

Lets Consider

Well Hubby and I went to Home Depot and bought a new fridge a GE for just short of $1,000. But as we where driving down we start to talk about getting a new toilet. I told him I could live with out a self ass wiper. Murphy thought we should consider getting one with a ass wiper.



For May it been cool. It seem to always have a cool breeze out of the North. So we had a chance to a little bit of gardening.
I got a dahlia planted in both of flower bed in front. Yesterday I put in a few glads out in the royal sunshine flowerbed. Add bit of glads to corner of the garden.
Murphy and I put in some Yukon gold potatoes. We had a little room at end of the row of Yukon gold and planted 4 hills of russet potatoes from a bag that bought from the store which is started to sprout.
The broccoli looked like it froze out so we put anther short roll of carrots.
Looks like most of our root crops are up.



Before we went out and plant. Murphy and Bart went to Safeway. One of Murphy high school class mate. Complain that she can't afford to eat with Safeway prices. I don't ever recall paying over a $1.00 pound for yellow onions. They want $1.99 a pound



Since the dandelions are out Murphy went around the neighborhood and found a few Moral mushrooms.

Saturday, May 08, 2010

Going On About Life



It been a struggle for me being off of my Rx for my anixity and depression. There a few moments though the day that I will come of the depression.
I try to keep my self busy. But work wares on me.
So one thing I like to do is plant things. So as BTC leaving our our they gave the custmers here a pack of for get me not flowers and I stuck them in the hodge podge flower bed.




I ran into my sister in law Faith in the down town Safeway parking lot. She not thrilled like most people here that BTC left and Safeway is now the only store in Bonners Ferry. They charge outrages prices. I haven't yet heard anyone being thrilled about the prices.




So Froday the 7th I took my friend Quenella shopping and doing her errands. Today I took her to my biofeed back and to meet Donna and she really like Donna and real could connect with her joy.
But now I was wonder if I said something I should of. You see both of these lady experence still born children. I try have empathey toward others even if I haven't experence something. Donna gave birth to a still born. Quenella daugher Eva when she was 15 or so got pregnut and had to give birth to a still born child. Both share the pain and suffering with me. I said something like. “I'm sorry the pain you experence but I kmow some one else who expernce the pain. I try not to hurt other people I try to be loving person of all of AH-HA children




We went to one thrift store I tried on 3 tops only one fit me, got some card to keep for special things such as birthday. Cards are outrages in price. I got mother of peral type necklace. And shelves!!!
Then we ran up to Sharrons and had some clam chowders for lunch and then my biofeed back.
Victoria could see I has under stress.Feeling time...I feel like I'm on emontial roller coaster and I'm unsure of my self at this and the energy around me So I'm trying to even out the roller coaster ride

Wednesday, May 05, 2010

Yes I Can and No I Can't


Murphy went back to work which I believe I said this before. Personal I would like to do something else other then do home care. In some ways I think it total joke!!! Confession time...I feel like I'm digging one of my client grave She sent me shopping and so far there diet I would call is WWW and I'm not talking “world wide web” but “white flour, white sugar, and white grease”
Then I look at my self and some of the stuff I buy like last night for dinner out of Safeway deli. Confession time...I have mix bag of feeling when I go and shop for her
I try to live a balance life but it far from perfect and I'm judging this person life and saying I”m so perfect.
It gives me great pain to see her eat this way and going in there pushing changes on her would really take her into a down hill spiral



I stop taking my anti depressed / anxiety Rx. I thought I could handle things much better. Because it Earl which is Murphy brother he doesn't feel like his brother is feeding him to the poison snakes.
Since they are much better in the relationship I thought it would be ok for me to go off my Rx. But I'm wondering if I should of.



I went into the dollar store and got a new fancy rain gauge. The one was a cheap plastic and it cracked.
I been doing simple pleasure to lift my mood went out and look at the veggie garden. Lot of the root crops are up but yet no sign of the carrots yet.
It been damp and cold these few day of May.
Murphy got snowed out today on his job at Porthill.
I made tuna and noodle casserole for dinner which is a comfort food. With home can green beans for dinner.

Sunday, May 02, 2010

May Day 2010


Happy May day!!!statement time..I had a dry hang over You know the ones when you don't drink any booze. The 30th of April I took Donna and her dog Rex to a healing at the gateway church in Courd'Alene.
I'm surprised that I enjoyed it much as I did. Confession time...It sure didn't feel like a home church but I sure would go back and be guest once again.
Let see there was few areas bothered me on there presentation.
1.There attitude toward our home, Earth. I felt like they was no need to be good Stewart toward mother earth.
2.Division of Faith. There right and everyone is wrong or just don't get. So if I understood they message the only way not to have division is to be converted to their way of thinking.
3.Blaming everything on the enemy (devil) not taking responsibility for one self. Belief time...We have complete control over any evil spirit or demons
But actual I could relate to her ideal of taking steps for our own healing.
Confession time..If I drank more water it would benefit me greatly.
Before the message for healing they had a praise and worship which was like rock concert. I like flowing flag show.
But the gardenia center feel more like home to me



My friend Quenella and I went down to Sandpoint to go to the Gardenia center. Plus to do some shopping.
Safeway is the only store at this time in Bonners Ferry and there outrages in there prices. I thought yokes was bad but there more reasonable then Safeway. Most everything is double or more the price.
The topic of the main speaker was “feeling better about one self by helping others” On the first Sunday of the month after the service we have pot luck. I didn't have much time to fix anything. So I got a bag of chips and grab some dough holes. Quenella brought some mix fruit salad.
On pot luck Sunday they hold a short mediation of silent or prayer as some may need. I sat quietly and cleared my mind. Confession time...I was coming home from my job and complaining how much I hate my job I couldn't figure out why. It came to me and now how to change the part I hate.
So after the service and pot luck we did some shopping. So I went into wal-mart and got a lobelia plant and put in my royal sunshine flowerbed.



I ran into my friend Alice in Safeway her and I felt the same about the prices their. She worked for the same company that I do. Alice client got complete drop. Her client had a combo of Medicaid and Med-Care. She had to pay a Co pay. She couldn't afford it.
The Mormon church was to pay her co-pay but some how things didn't work out. This lady needs the help. So my friend Alice income is down by $1012 a month.
So she volunteering 3 days a week at 2 hours each time.
But I know the Mormons won't help someone outside of their Faith, Alice isn't a Mormon I wonder if this may have something to do with it.
Or anything on regular bases they frown a monthly bill.
I know the Mormons help out my other client when she move into her new place. Paid all the cost for her to move in.
I don't recall what it would cost Alice client but it would majorly cut in her budget it could effect if she eats or not.

Saturday, May 01, 2010

Weather Report April 2010


April 16th was the warmest day 70.5(21.3)
April 9th was the coldest day 22.6(-5.6)
The average high for the month of April was 55.6(13.1)
The average low for the month of April was 31.9(-05.6)
On the 7th of April firstt time it didn't freeze at night.
April 16th it got into the 70's(21.1)
Hummingbirds return on the 25th that morning.

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