Let get right to news. Talk to Bart and his insurance will be covering him and tumor removal. But I still in emotional conflict. I want and need to be honest with my self. If I start having hope and everything will work out just find. Than I get angry at my self for possible not being in reality. But when I feel discouragement. I feel guilty. So I'm not sure how or what to feel. I feel like I'm being flip between hope and discouragement. I feel safe feeling for me is indifference. If I can't settle my feeling I will seek a therapist. But a thing helps me is that I know he is strong will and do everything he needs to be their for his family. And his surgery is end of the month.
Work went well today took Regis to his appointment and went over to Liz went though some items. She likes to watch DR PIPPLE POPPER
Editor Note...I'm not sure what reality should or should not be.
Coffee is on and stay safe
You won’t know what the outcome of the surgery will be until it happens. I know that doesn’t stop you from worrying. You’ll get through this. Sending healing thoughts.
ReplyDeleteJust close your eyes and take a few deep breaths whenever you feel too anxious and remember Bart has been through this before and come out okay.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad Bart will soon be having his operation. Try not to worry! Valerie
ReplyDeleteWhile I know well your medical system, it still makes me so angry that Bart can't get the best surgery in a public hospital with no cost to him. Instead he is dependant on a decision by a company that is there to make a profit. What if the insurance company refused? Would he just go untreated and perhaps die?
ReplyDeleteGlad Bart has a date for surgery. Was the first tumour benign?
ReplyDeleteIt's a very confusing and upsetting time for you and your family. I'm glad he'll have his surgery.
ReplyDeleteThere is nothing wrong about thinking positive. If you are wrong then at least you tried, then think positive again because positive energy is the best.
ReplyDeleteIt has to be a tough time for you worrying about Bart. It will make the time drag along I imagine. Hang in the Peppy!
ReplyDeleteYes, that would be hard. You want to have hope, but you don't want your hopes dashed. If only there was a way to turn off that concern until there was something you could do with it.
ReplyDeleteGosh I hate that your son has a tumor. I understand your worry.
ReplyDeleteNot knowing an outcome is always difficult, not knowing how to handle our range of emotion about the tough stuff we have to deal with is also difficult. Sometimes even knowing an outcome isn't easy either. I do hope your Son's surgery goes well, always hang onto hope, however slim, hopelessness is never Helpful and leads to all kinds of potentially negative things. I remember when The Man and my Younger Brother were given diagnosis that gave no hope... I just didn't receive that. Both of them are still here, against all odds. I remember when my Brother was told by Specialists he didn't have long to live and should make his final arrangements. He called me, of coarse quite distraught, I told him none of us is dead 'til God says so. No matter what anyone else says... no expiration date is known for any of us really, just mere speculation, even by experts... and they have been known to be Wrong. That was many Years ago my Brother got that terminal diagnosis, he lives fully in every Moment since, appreciating the Gift each Day is for any/all of us. Big Hugs my Friend, this is very tough to move thru... I'm glad I'm catching up on my Blog reads this Evening so I know what you're up against my Friend.
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