Let just start with me. I'm getting tired of being in this funk. I even have a hard time tolerating my self in last few weeks. But when I fall into a funk. I keep telling my self you been pulling your self out of slump. Some how I mange to it, each day.
This afternoon I slip into depressive slump, and had to excuse my self from work. I went home and took tranquillizer which came off the black market. They do have there place. But it just blanks out your thoughts and you don't deal with the issue at hand. But I need a break. My doctor did offer me tranquillizer and I refuse them and now I'm wondering if I should of gotten them. She was going to write the prescription as a PRN anther word as needed.
I didn't hear from the therapist today. Had plan to call shortly after three this afternoon. But once I even took a half of pill I have hard time functioning. I didn't want to call and make poor excuse as person. By slurring my words together. But I had to leave my thoughts and need an escape from them. I will call Monday morning and see what is going on. I think or believe some of my issues was my father death. That needs and should be resolved. Although I'm not sure even where to start. But the therapist should be able to help me sort it out.
So I'm going to try to go up to Liz Saturday for 2 or 3 hours. I will do light pick up and wash some whites. I told her I will bring up an art project I'm working on. I'm having trouble drawing and open book. I hope Liz will give me some pointer. Can't get my page curve right.
I need to catch up on my paper work.
I hope you feel better soon, you can do it.
ReplyDeleteI hope you feel better soon, perhaps get the tranquiliser from the doctor instead of blackmarket, you can't be sure what is in those illegal pills.
ReplyDeleteHow long ago did your dad die?
Depression is a horrid thing. Only thing that helps me is laughing or going out in nature for some exercise and split from human race for a bit. You know, like alone camping.
ReplyDeleteI hope the depression soon passes, look after yourself, Valerie
ReplyDeleteTake care of yourself.
ReplyDelete...I can only say that I'm sorry to hear about your state of mind.
ReplyDeleteDora,
ReplyDeleteMaybe the tranquilizer prescription from the Dr was a better option than some from the black market. You don’t know what you’re getting these days.
Take care.
Funk is not fun, we sure hope you feel better soon.
ReplyDeletePlease, take care, and if you feel you need the prescription, please reach out to the doctor. It's strength, not weakness, to seek help at this point. Alana ramblinwitham.blogspot.com
ReplyDeleteThat's the worst part of depression: you think you should be able to pull yourself out of it, but that just makes the whole feeling worse. Glad you're working on getting help.
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