Friday August 21 2020, This Is What Happen

 

It Friday and it been awhile since I took part in  PAINT PARTY FRIDAY and it been a few days since I blog. It been stressful at work and at home. In a little while I while I will update you on it.

Then been watching the DNC and now it over. As watch the convention I did some of my art. Still working slowly on my ATC; eat, food, kitchen theme. Well this is for letter "H" for "HAM" Should of made it more oval not with as big dents. Try water down acrylics on back ground.

Murphy is seem to be holding together. He has and appointment with the doctor 30 days after his last appointment. I believe in my last post I mention how doctor don't like to put labels on behavior health issue. I know mental illness isn't political correct. But there also emotional health issues.

It was mention two in briefly in conversation. P.T.S.D, although said light case. I seen plenty of cases of P.T.S.D and majority I've seen are a lot more dysfunction. Statement time...Murphy and I wasn't aloud to be dysfunction and had to face our storms with sometime hardly any thing to hold on to.

Then the other one is PARNOID without the schizophrenia. Me, personal wouldn't quite use those terms. I haven't yet meant a person without some type of trauma and know a person got diagnosed with P.T.S.D over what I call minor incident. One time care of someone and had issue about doing chores as they grew up. 

I think I use the term pessimistic instead of paranoid. He worried about election, in our community we are known as "Trump Hater" 

Statement time...Personal I feel sorry for him and wish we would get the mental health help he so  much needs. 

Well for some reason he thinks we are top list of some right conservative party list, and there going to back up all liberals and take them to GUANTANAMO BAY well I told I knew a lease three people in our community would be more on watch list. We're not number one. I honestly doubt they would even end up in Guantanamo Bay.

Statement time...Regardless I doubt Trump will leave office if he loses. And what hoping he goes to Russia....Confession time...It scares me if he win election and get a second term Sort of like riding off into the sunset. 

Then I notice most of time when Liz slips into one of her momentments. I guess that only word I can come up. Usual it can be trace back to one of her kids, there adults. This time for first time all three of them she claim they attack her, not physically. Well she usual tears up and sometime cries. 

This time she claims to taken bunch of pills. Well the amount she claims to taken was forty. Well I believe she would of been in hospital. She claims she wasn't trying to commit suicide. But just want to sleep. Opinion time...She doesn't want to or doesn't quite have the skills to face her issue. See she had quite a bit of what I would call truma and numbs her pain with beer and if it there issue that comes up she will increase her alcohol intake and or take more pills.

Most of her time is just setting on couch. One thing I notice seems to be repeating words of a therapist is "activity" like a hobby, doing basic chores and getting out and about. I sure hope "Liz" feel safe there. It would drive me batty just sitting most of day. 

Editor note...Her first husband she got divorce from is coming for a visit. Well she was married like at 16 or so and that marriage got allulled. 

Then this week with Regis his back been giving him trouble. As many you know he takes medication for his mental health. Well one of his meds isn't directly related to his mental health. He is on morphine 60 mg and his pills comes in 15 mg and is allowed to take up to 4 a day. 

Regis regular doctor who been handling his meds move to Boise and had to go another doctor. Plus a lot of doctor are now worried about prescribing opioids and controlled substance. My state of Idaho one caught with marijuana could land you into legal mess.  So now for pain they send you to a pain clinic, for main reason for this is doctor don't want harassment or visit from DEA

Most doctor I've dealt with is not all concern about marijuana. But it still illegal federal and a few states.

So if you're one prescribed or possible seeker a controlled substance it fairly good chance you will be ask to take urine test. 

Well now let get back to Regis. He and I went into the pain clinic and they went over his medication list and as most doctor ask a few question about health habits such smoking, drinking, and such. At ever doctor appointment he mention that he smokes marijuana. So they want him to take piss test. Well it comes back in there terms "dirty" 

So know meds. Regis is mental ill and someone like that you just don't jerk there meds around. Someone like that you have a plan to get them though it. His brain has either a chemical and or wiring issue. So pulling the rug from him could get a way different result them some who is normal. The stress of it could end him in to a BEHAVIORAL HEALTH UNIT OF A HOSPITAL and closes one is in Coeur D alene. 

So hopeful next week we can come up with workable plan. It just plain not right how they treat the mentally ill mostly without money.

I lack the skills expressing myself using my voice and word why they use the term verbally or verb isn't how I would express one self. Personally I would use the term adjective is words that express one self. I could be all wrong.

So I feel more confident expressing myself through my blog and youtube because I use my words is another story. 

I done a few youtube videos and it getting easier. Confession time...It getting easier but I am not total relax doing videos. I feel like my mind is mainly stuttering and my tongue  is all twisted about.

My art is one way I express myself and would be interested having someone who has degree in art and psychology and tell me about myself and why I did these piece, and what do they mean.  

Trip down to Spokane tomorrow to see my youngest and his family. He has big backyard where we can social distance. Anyhow Washington has mask mandate and I feel safer there. 

Coffee is on