four part to our free will

I’ve been deciding what to write about thought out the day. As I was doing domestic chores before I went to work it came to my mind free will all day I kept see or some people was talking about free will. Before I do my commentary on free will. I’m going to steam off a little about the price of food around here it expensive. Is it like that were you live? This morning I started to think about the two reasons why I went to work. Is to help the family out to get the extra in life and the other reason is to buy supplies to reopen my ceramic shop. To me the little extra in family is coming before ceramic supplies. I keep asking my self “where my will to work on the ceramic shop” I know I’ve put a lot time and money in it.
Next I went to curves before I went to work. The Curves in Bonners Ferry has a book and I honestly don’t recall the title. They have short writing that makes you think. Well today writing was about your own personal will.
Then I went over to Callie, she is the one I do home care for. She was telling me that a lady and her went to Kootani inn to play bingo. She bingo once and put winning into the slot even got the slot up to around 60 some dollars. Didn’t cash out. She told me that she didn’t have any will to stop playing the machine. I pointed out sure it would be great to walk out with the 60 bucks. She started talking that she did'nt have any free will She told me that she had fun and they laughed; stayed little after midnight. I said to Callie then “It was your will to get out of the place and have fan”.
Then when Bart got off work his friend Cedrick who called to see if he was interested in playing freshman football. At the end of July I saw an article in the Bonners Ferry Herald that they had a football camp for up coming freshman. So he asks if I would take him and he didn’t want to quite weeding at Cliffy. He didn’t want to stop weeding at Cliffy. So I suggested he talk to his coach and see if he could do the evening practice and not morning. The coach was fine with that. As I was driving Bart into town. I told him” Don’t let any influence you to play football it up to you and your free will” I figure are free will is real divide into 4 parts. First one is society believe me rules of your society. Believe me their things I like to do and can’t because it illegal or not excepted at this time. Number two is that god/devil not the same person. Couldn’t you image getting caught with “joint” and telling the judge it is “God will” for me to smoke a little weed. They would accept that but would using it was the “devil will” Third one that influence you will is your love one. You do things for your love one even if you don’t want to because you want to see them “happy” I saved the best one for last and number 4 is your own self “will”.

this evening we went over to visit faith and her husband Heinz and they got their swimming pool in. When we drove in gas was at $2.49 a gallon I told Murphy that I’ll get it on the way home” guess what they raised it up to $2.55 a gallon.

yellow, purple or both

I have-not yet figure out how to do font size or font color in html. I’m a determent to learn html. I know I can accomplish this

my glades are starting to bloom I haveyellow and and purple I need to water my flowerbed it been just plain hot here. I’ll wait until this evening when it cooled down

Not going to write much today I’m falling behind and the way it starting to look around here that we are beginning to live in poverty. In my last writing I said there a different between low income and poverty.

a different between poverty and low income

Font size 8> Again I’m experimenting with htlm. I’m trying to do different size and colors. Tonight it getting frustrated I’ve started quite few times. I keep telling my self to relax you’ll get the hang of it. My friend Quenelle wants a web site by the end of the month. I doubt I’ll be ready then

This late morning I took my client Callie to Sandpoint which is about 35 miles south of Bonners Ferry on the way I swung by and drop her nephew Zowie off at his mom place.

after seeing were Callie sister Eris lives. To me they’re a different between low income and poverty.

Low income is someone who don’t have much money in today standards. They choice to keep their personal environment, home environment clean and family environment clean. When the boys were young we lived under seven thousand a year. We keep our yard and house picked up, although it wasn’t spotless. We grew a garden and we ate veggies and someone always gave us fruit, of course we had a special treat ever so often. And bought our clothing from yard sales or some type of thrift store, I’m a blue jean fan. We’re not perfect but we take pride in our surroundings.

Poverty is a complete different problem. Someone who decides to live in a squalor living condition by his or her own choice. When you drive by these people they will automobiles lie in the yard part a strung all over the place, plus all sort of things either partial tore down or not finished. Go into one of these homes and I wonder if the inside is any represent of outside. In above I talked about food. I notice some people I know who lives in what I call poverty that they seem to buy lot of soda pop, chips, and carbohydrates with refine sugars.

to me their a different between poverty and low in come. People who are low income are somewhat looked as someone in poverty and this should not be.

postive mood

I’m again trying something again with html I want to have my holly green font. I like to try some other html life always busy.

Got both of the boys up for work and I went back to bed and went back to bed for couple of hours. I was tired and like to get 7 to 8 ½ hours of sleep. Before I went to work I fold up serial loads of laundry. Folding whites can be tithes cause most of our socks are white everyone got a different style. I got a load of towel and I threw in some lighter things with the towel.

Murphy had the day off and he change the brakes on the nova we have two door maroon 78 Nova in great shape. We’ve had people admire that car. As I was at work hubby got quite bit of laundry done an that helps a lot. He even said changing the brakes went fairly smooth. He was not all in a negative mood and I like being around him and mainly enjoy his company. When he in negative mood I honestly don’t want him around at all!

Went over to Callie around 10AM she been gone for 3 days. I thought her Apt would been trashed, it wasn’t! She wants to be less depended on others to help her and I real can’t hold that against anyone. I like being able to take care of my self. Callie has fiber myalgent, and bi polar. (I love trying to spell medical terms lol) If she takes her meds she does fine. In my opinion she real needs 12 hours a week. She get 16 hours a week

this after noon Murphy, Bart our youngest son, and I went to Dog beach in Sandpoint and went swimming. I couldn’t believe the traffic we had to drive threw. It was well worth it to cool down

Then came home and fix dinner food is so outrages. They raise everything else except our wages. Gas here now is $2.45 to $2.49 a gallon. Tonight for dinner we had beef liver, a big toss salad with imitation lobster sure is good, rice and milk. After dinner I took Bart to boy scouts.

Went over to see my friend Alice she was taking inventory she was a home business her main product is home made jelly and jams. Plus she was other items to. We had a nice short she was heading down to get two of kids who went fishing on Pack River.

I came home and start to do my blogg. The picture is of Bart his 8th grade promotion. Let see if my html comes out.

out my car window

No prating HTML tags. I pretty well want to be in bed by 9PM or shortly after. Well this morning Murphy woke up and quickly became flustered. Some how he and Sawyer had a misunderstanding of words. Night before I told Sawyer “leave me my car”. I don’t know what was said somehow Sawyer thought his dad told him to take the car.
Sawyer threw a tizzy. He went on and on complaining that he won’t get out Dodge. The only thing I though if I had that kind of tizzy, I know I wouldn’t have any type of pleasurable activities. My day would have been over and possibilities up to week if I carried on like that. I sure can’t ground my hubby.
Well I said I drive over to Clifty and switch rigs. Saw a lot of game hen pheasant; a family of wild turkeys, doe and her fawn, and a blue heron fly right in front of me.
Well Murphy and I finely got going down the road we went over to a nude resort in Northern Washington. The drive went well and this time we found the place but we had a map. When we were almost there we saw a big bull moose, I’m sure it was a 5-point.
I had relaxing time. Murphy didn’t gripe I don’t know why he doesn’t grip to everyone else. It gets to be tiring and frustrate that I want to blow up and say “ Quit your dam complaining plus I find your negative attitude depressing” Know wonder my shoulder and back always hurt. I wonder why sometime I let the ole grouch have sex with me. I know his left leg real bothers him and he has terrible cramps.

growing up

I know how to make regular type tags and bold tags What I find hard is to have my brain keep track of grammar, spelling, typing plus all the tag codes in the right spots. I sure like to try some more on my blogg. For reference I’m usingCreating Web Pages for DummiesI’m think of buying a book likeHTML for Dummies.

I’m going to try a little different font and size. I wonder if people use real name in these bloggs. I sure don’t I get mine from www.babynames.com/ and www.babynamesworld.com but the place and times are real. Anyhow I thought of telling about my blog to my brother in-law Earl. Not telling my user name he would be trying to find the blog all day because it would be driving him nuts.
I wish at time I wouldn’t have such angry and or hurt feeling. “I don’t have any respected for people who lies I consider most of them cowards” Sure I would tell people what they want to hear if I had a gun to my head. Enough about Earl and his family! I can be civil to them.

this morning I had to take Murphy into the hospital, Boundary County Community Hospital he was a tightness in his chess and his shoulder hurt. Mine shoulder hurt most of the time and I’ve learned to live with the pain. Well they did all those fancy test and he wasn’t having any heart problem. I would call it indigestion. He takes on a daily bases Ibuprofen. the doctor wrote a RX forPiroxicamto replace the ibuprofen, sure hope it works.
Murphy always has deep leg cramps and gets all stove up. I’m going to try to talk him having a physical and if I can’t get I’ll get his sister Faith to put in her “two cent” on the matter that her brother goes and see a doctor.

after our bit with the hospital Murphy and I went for a drive up Fall Creektoward Dodge Peakthe road would of went over to the Pack riverand down toSamuels . The only reason we didn’t go the condition of the road. But we got two interesting stumps and two flat pieces of granite to do landscaping with.

We have teenagers and being so busy with life I wish I could find the time and activity we all could do, before they left home. It seem like they don’t want much to do with us from us and I remember wanting to be not under my parents rules. It scary that our teenagers are growing up and they will leave home and probley has family in the future. I sure hope the family doesn’t start till they are pass 24. Two yearSawyerwill probley go toNorth Idaho CollegeI’ve told him how important going to college is and he needs to think about the benefits of college. He think the world isn’t spinning fast enough I hope they don’t think I’m nag. I want both of my boys to be happy in life. I’m not picking their careers.

this is a picture of a pond on our drive upfall creek

trying still to learn graphics

Here I go again trying to learn some Tags . my friend Quenelle wants me to build her web site for her gardens, I tried talk her in hiring a graphic artistes. I need lot more practice to figure out all these codes. my son Sawyer they get some where around 50 bucks an hour. At his time she can’t afford to hire one. I pointed out what would take me 3 hours to me do it would take them ½ to do. I’m sure not afraid to try most any thing so or later I’ll get the hang of it. At curves they have a hula-hoop and I got the hang of doing it. I still need a lot to figure out on graphic . I need to start a new paragraphs right now I just want to have my subject in bold letters the rest in regular type. We sold our horse trailer for a 1000 to our neighbors. I went to curves and shopping B.T.C and I was just going to get lemon pepper I spend 28 bucks. Anther hot day I thought I would write in blogg before Murphy got home he been working in field at tree r us. I think they are transplanting spruce now. I got my living room cleaned. I need to end this soon and go upstairs to clean some. I’m going to try to do Thailand Chicken on the baroque sure looks like just Murphy and I for dinner. Should be left overs. Sure hopes this works if it does not I’ll again try try till I get it but it seems it takes a lot of time to type this.

let try being bold

Boy I don’t even know where to start with this experiment. My friend Quenella
Wants me to build her a web site and more I read about it. It sure sounds confusing they live up on Katka Mountain and they have beautiful flower gardens and they want to host small wedding parties.
So I’m typing in words and try to make somebold. Maybe I should be in note pad or word pad. I guess if I don’t try I’ll never learn. A least I know I won’t blowI have to be honest I’m getting burned out at work I come home and do the same thing. Plus I’m disappointedthat my ceramic shop is coming at the rate I think it should.

People in Glass House Shouldn't Throw Rocks

Snowy winter evening my sister in law decide or was told by her mother Ulanda that she want to look at some wildlife. So they took a trip up North to Robinson Lake. Well make long story short. They got stuck and I guess some how there was miscommunication among all involved. People went out looking for them.
This is when we start to get up set with Earl and Tadita. Murphy went over to his brother Earl house to see if he could help in any way. Ulanda and Tadita were sitting on the couch bad mouthing Earl who was trying to help them all behind his back. Even before this Ulanda and Tadita would sit around and tell each other that Earl was lazy bastard, stupid fool. Murphy said to his sister in law and her mother You shouldn’t bad mouth people who trying to help you outthen what I understand that Ulanda had this angry and glared at Murphy. Also Ulanda was advising Tadita to leave Earl that he was no good and she could do so much better with out him.
Ulanda likes to bad mouth people to other people so she can bring her self-esteem up or she likes stabbing people in the back.
Then a short time later their youngest son Ozzie looked right at Murphy and said “my mom and grandmother hates you.” I wonder if Ulanda and Tadita were sitting on the couch badmouth my husband and Ozzie over heard what they was saying.
I haven’t heard Tadita talk much about others behind their backs. But her mom sure does.
Then one afternoon Earl got real stoned and told his brother that Ulanda knows that we are all swingers and we told her we just know the same people. To me Earl and Tadita just threw us to the wolves. After that they never came over to our house only once when Ulanda was out of Town.
Then Murphy meets his brother at Safeway. Earl said “Thank god that you didn’t say any thing about us to Ulanda. Hell sounds like it ok for them to tell on us
Then a short time after that Murphy took a headless nude picture of Tadita, Earl and I and wrote on the picture “Liars don’t prosper” and fold it up and gave it to Ulanda.

It important to mench that I called up Earl before Murphy gave Ulanda the nude pictures and asked him two questions. 1st question was, did you tell Ulanda that we were swinger? Herb said “no” and I belive him. Now for the 2nd question “Does Ulanda know we’re swing? his voice went up 10 octaves and out of his mouth came, “I don’t recall”






I don't know who or how Ulanda found out that we were swings before the picture was given to Ulanda It kind of strange that they only showed up to our house when Ulanda was on the coast.
I wonder if Earl, Tadita, and or Ulanda bad mouth us so bad that they poisen our well and was afrid that they could'nt come out to our place because Ulanda might find out.
I asked Murphy why he showed Ulanda the picture? He said just to show Ulanda Since Ulanda knew that Murphy and I was swingers why shouldn’t she know about Earl and Tadita. Their doing the same thing we are. People in glass house shouldn’t throw rocks.
Personal I gave Earl and Tadita the benifit of dout until Earl voice went 10 octaves when I ask if Ulanda knew we were swingers. I still don't know who or how she found out. I strongly belive Ulanda knew way before the picture was given to her
It sad it had to come down to this I actual thought Tadita and Earl are likeable.

Brood of Turkey

This morning their been a family of wild Turkey with their young.
I’m starting to get burn out on my job. I real want to get my ceramic shop going but it seem slow. This morning I got up at 4 AM to take Bart to work at Clifty View Nursery he tree weedier. Then I came home did load of towels and general cleaning.
I took Callie up the north hill so she can take a test so she can start her Jet program. Best way I understand this program. I should learn office and computer skills. Well I sign up to take it but before I take the course I need to take a test. I get nervous when it comes to test and I do crap on them.
I couldn’t believe what the income level for a family of 4. 3thousand something don’t recall the hundred. Heck we make about 23thosand a year I think that’s about 1,915 a month. Not too many working people do around here.
Paid the house insurance 600 some dollars for the year. Stop in at my sister in-law Faith to get some address.
She was cleaning their house waiting for child protection agency to come and expect her home. I guess her grandson Kelby will be living with them for a bit. What I thought was stupid the question that health and welfare ask. I wonder who thinks of these question I’m starting to ought they ever been around children.
Anyhow I’ve trying to loose weight for sometime and I came to reason that I’m afraid that I’ll get thinner and will be able to wear sexier clothing. When I dressed better I was doing cocaine and sure I had a faults security about me and I don’t want to get into that rut again or any other rut. I haven’t done any real amount for over 23 years.
So hopeful I can put my fear behind me and start loose weight and getting into some kind of shape other then what I am

ready for bed

Thought I would write a little bit before I got ready and went to Callies. I know this afternoon I’ll have to take her to her Doctor apointment.
Callie is talking about moving over to Washington State. She’s on social secrity disability and Washington has better benefits then Idaho
Plus I want to try to put in a hyper links. Second attempted http://www.oldpattern.com/smock.htm I know this isn’t what I wanted. Right site but wrong way of doing it What I want is when I put in the word “apron” or “smock” and when a person click on those two magic words that they would go to “old pattern. Com” I’ve been thinking of sewing some smock or apron trying to sell at craft shows. I’m not planning to have a large inventory of apron and or smocks.
Well I’m back once again. Sure am tired. Sometime I wish I worked more hours. Then on the other hand I’m glad I don’t.
A large paycheck would be nice. Even now I don’t get everything done that I need to and my home shows it.
What real disappoint me is; that my ceramic business isn’t coming along as I wish it would. I was hoping to be casting ceramics before this.
I’ll be getting up an hour early then normal to take Bart to work. My oldest son Sawyer works at the same place but he has the next 2 days off.