Today Is Monday August 31 2020, This Is What Happen

 Just finished up my paperwork for my job, usual I am behind. My client are well taken care. Not trying to be braggerett, if there such a thing. Well I shouldn't go the extra mile, every so often we have fun day. But we're not saying anything. Regis and I went out and had cup of coffee. To put quite simple I should just look at my client as number with no feelings or needs.

Also saw Liz and she usually drink six pack of beer and smoke pack cigarettes. I told her she spends just under $100 a week on beer and cigarettes. 

Strange think most people who I know still smokes really can't afford it. 

I was hoping to be down closer to 203 pounds. Sunday I had uncontrollable cookie eating day. I tend not to record what I eat on my off days. This isn't being responsible. 

Not sure what or when I will be doing my youtube video next month, my goal is to do four of them in September.   

Coffee is on

Today Is Sunday August 30 2020, This Is What Happen

 

Not heavily felt like fall weather, only slightly. Notice the Maples on North side place start to lighten up to a different color. Other then tanning, wouldn't it be strange if we all changed color though the change of season. Started to sort of watering what I call royal sunshine bed. Half of it needs to come out. We want to plant a tree in that spot. So in summer time the sun won't be beating on kitchen door.

Thought I wouldn't living in world, mostly here in United States that became disconcerting for those who live in North Idaho, and isn't a Trump supporter. Start to look into other places to live. As for political climate I am looking for neither a dark red or blue state. Yes other small requirement in moving. Knowing I won't be getting everything I need or want.

My son and his family from Medford came up. Meant them at the beach and mostly her was shocked on how many people didn't have mask on. Won't past judgement on any of dramatic of who is who anyone of the people in photo. There in Oregon or Washington if you don't have mask on they usually ask you to put on mask and if you refuse to then your ask to leave. If that doesn't settle the mask issue they will call local law enforcement and then usually your charged with trespassing. Around here nothing is done about mask. Opinion time...I believe there afraid to say anything because of retaliation.

My life is to go to work stay stores much as possible. Go home and only social life I have is I visit with my friend Quenella in Georgia park once a week or every other. We get our coffee at Under the Sun and there no protection for the employees or customers.  None of their employees have any type of mask on or shields on. Usual most of their clientele is also unmasked. I been thinking of getting my coffee at zip trip and just taking it down to Georgia park.

Sort of playing with ideal going down to Medford, in October. I have no issue of wearing a mask and social distance. But since I live in area that  most people here doesn't follow C.D.C guidelines. Feel it not right for those who might be traveling the same time I am, and putting them at odds. Actual I feel safer over in Washington or Oregon, with their mask mandate.

About to say If memory serves me right that waverly fabric is from Walmart. I could google that to find my answer. So I got these fabrics iron and put in there correct containers. Rolled up one brown fabric roll for my crochet rag rug I am working on. It good to let the fabric roll to set for a lease two weeks, it seems it sort of natural puts crease in fabric, to hold at one inch. Over on facebook I been doing a creative challenge. So far no takers but I am not giving up. But even for us people who likes to do our arts and craft the way we meet is changing. Most community has such a thing as art, yarn, or quilt club and they either put on show or be part of the local county fair. What I notice lot of them is doing it on line. One quilt show I would like to go to is the one in SISTER OREGON but like lot of them there now online, wear it safe and I understand why it done this way. But it seems strange. Last I heard our community is hosting there show at our local fairgrounds. I just don't see myself not going. 

Today Is Saturday August 29 2020, This Is What Happen

 Been watching our two main political party convention, pretty crazy. Question time...Is other country politics as crazy as Americans? Well I have  family members on both side of political scale. So I been told it not good to have idle mind and or hands, work of devil. So I kept busy and also believe it saved our television for me not to toss a shoe though screen.

  Like I said I kept busy. Started a crochet rag rug, using old sheets. I ran out blue and would like to come or close to matching one of other color in the blue. Have a tote full old sheet. What I did find was an old brown sheet. But only dug through the tote briefly. 

No photos but did a quick and rough sketch of my next tarot card I am drawing. One thing I find is difficult to get depth of a hall or aisle.

Then organize more fabric. Not short on fabric. I got some wet and let try for about half hour outside. Usual there is a breeze. So during convention I pressed or a better term was to iron out wrinkles.

These been working real good to wrap smaller piece of fabrics on. Not exactly sure what there called. But I seen them in different store and usually they run from one to two dollar a sheet. I got a stack of them at a thrift store. My only complaint is that I have to cut them to size I need. Which is hard on hands, Murphy told me that the same type material they use in farm nursery that handle plants and such. They make shipping containers with them. 

Same old thing going on. I get up and go to work, although the clients I have is pretty easy to take of it. But I am looking forward to retirement. Covid numbers are low in our area, last I looked under 45. It seems like depending on day of week you go shopping on what percentage population has mask on. Last Thursday it seem hardly anyone had maks on. Then on Friday it seemed like most of population had mask on. 

Coffee is on. 

Today Is August 24 2020, This Is What Happen

 I thought I was paying attention to what ate. And I once again went over. But this morning this I did managed to get walk in before it got to hot. 

This morning hubby sister called and said there youngest brother wife past away. I saw something about it on I believe it was facebook. But I couldn't put together. Well there doing fundraiser for BURIAL EXPENSE I hope some of my readers could donated and or share this story. 

Hubby and I been watching the RNC well one word at this point I described it as "gag" Since I watch DNC pretty much the entire thing I will also see what the other flip of pancake looks like. I got a rag rug that start to make some time ago. I can watch t.v and crochet, no real counting in doing rug.

I did manage to drop off item today at thrift store. And did looked at the fabric and purse. Walked with nothing. I got rid both my backpack purse. Last time I was northtown mall in Spokane. I saw one I real like there. Sadly I don't recall the store. For now I think going to toss my wallets and don't have that many of them. Into one purse so I can get them off table. I like to figure something else to do with them. 

Coffee is on

Today Is Sunday August 23 2020. This Is What Happan

 Yesterday Murphy and I went to Spokane to visit my youngest son and my granddaughters. We had lunch over at my son in law. We ate outside and social distance. When social distance wasn't happening I stuck on my mask. All had a great visit. But with covid things sure have change and I am trying to make the best of it.

Brief few lines as we was driving though kootenai county and believe around Hayden area in some church parking lot they were having a trump rally like thing. Didn't pull in. What I could see none of them had mask on. And saw I believe was less five rigs with big old confederate and or don't tread on me. Confession time...I find these people intimidating and I know there all over the world. 

Recorded everything I ate today over on fitday and my calorie count was over, by 450 calories all though no things like cookie, candy bar and etc. But it seem like once I had two basic hot dog I felt hungry all day. I drank water most of day although I doubt I meant my goal of 40oz. It now past 7 and nothing is to into my mouth except water.

Hubby went to store and got a new product from Safeway. Chicken patties with mixture of peppers and little cheese in them. There ok or I could say "middle of road" But in my calorie count I could find anything that would be close to these was burger king chicken sandwich. I know usual have high calorie count. 

I just dabbled about around the place and got rid of fourth of my purse. Before I took them out to my car I went through them. I came up with little over $80 and my charms and rocks I pack around. Oh I found my glasses. One thing I haven't yet figure out where or how to organize my wallet. Now I got more area around my sewing machine. Now to be organized enough to sew. 

So I got a few things go into the thrift store. 5 purses, 3 ring binders it was wrong size and size I am looking for is 4 inch three ring binders, and a small pitcher. 

Well I did a little over 6 minute video on FLAT TAXES & ONE PAYER MEDICAL and who every suggest just talk about topic was right so much easier. Even if I covered two. Going to work my bullet journal shortly. Read some blogs and watch some video.

Coffee is on

Friday August 21 2020, This Is What Happen

 

It Friday and it been awhile since I took part in  PAINT PARTY FRIDAY and it been a few days since I blog. It been stressful at work and at home. In a little while I while I will update you on it.

Then been watching the DNC and now it over. As watch the convention I did some of my art. Still working slowly on my ATC; eat, food, kitchen theme. Well this is for letter "H" for "HAM" Should of made it more oval not with as big dents. Try water down acrylics on back ground.

Murphy is seem to be holding together. He has and appointment with the doctor 30 days after his last appointment. I believe in my last post I mention how doctor don't like to put labels on behavior health issue. I know mental illness isn't political correct. But there also emotional health issues.

It was mention two in briefly in conversation. P.T.S.D, although said light case. I seen plenty of cases of P.T.S.D and majority I've seen are a lot more dysfunction. Statement time...Murphy and I wasn't aloud to be dysfunction and had to face our storms with sometime hardly any thing to hold on to.

Then the other one is PARNOID without the schizophrenia. Me, personal wouldn't quite use those terms. I haven't yet meant a person without some type of trauma and know a person got diagnosed with P.T.S.D over what I call minor incident. One time care of someone and had issue about doing chores as they grew up. 

I think I use the term pessimistic instead of paranoid. He worried about election, in our community we are known as "Trump Hater" 

Statement time...Personal I feel sorry for him and wish we would get the mental health help he so  much needs. 

Well for some reason he thinks we are top list of some right conservative party list, and there going to back up all liberals and take them to GUANTANAMO BAY well I told I knew a lease three people in our community would be more on watch list. We're not number one. I honestly doubt they would even end up in Guantanamo Bay.

Statement time...Regardless I doubt Trump will leave office if he loses. And what hoping he goes to Russia....Confession time...It scares me if he win election and get a second term Sort of like riding off into the sunset. 

Then I notice most of time when Liz slips into one of her momentments. I guess that only word I can come up. Usual it can be trace back to one of her kids, there adults. This time for first time all three of them she claim they attack her, not physically. Well she usual tears up and sometime cries. 

This time she claims to taken bunch of pills. Well the amount she claims to taken was forty. Well I believe she would of been in hospital. She claims she wasn't trying to commit suicide. But just want to sleep. Opinion time...She doesn't want to or doesn't quite have the skills to face her issue. See she had quite a bit of what I would call truma and numbs her pain with beer and if it there issue that comes up she will increase her alcohol intake and or take more pills.

Most of her time is just setting on couch. One thing I notice seems to be repeating words of a therapist is "activity" like a hobby, doing basic chores and getting out and about. I sure hope "Liz" feel safe there. It would drive me batty just sitting most of day. 

Editor note...Her first husband she got divorce from is coming for a visit. Well she was married like at 16 or so and that marriage got allulled. 

Then this week with Regis his back been giving him trouble. As many you know he takes medication for his mental health. Well one of his meds isn't directly related to his mental health. He is on morphine 60 mg and his pills comes in 15 mg and is allowed to take up to 4 a day. 

Regis regular doctor who been handling his meds move to Boise and had to go another doctor. Plus a lot of doctor are now worried about prescribing opioids and controlled substance. My state of Idaho one caught with marijuana could land you into legal mess.  So now for pain they send you to a pain clinic, for main reason for this is doctor don't want harassment or visit from DEA

Most doctor I've dealt with is not all concern about marijuana. But it still illegal federal and a few states.

So if you're one prescribed or possible seeker a controlled substance it fairly good chance you will be ask to take urine test. 

Well now let get back to Regis. He and I went into the pain clinic and they went over his medication list and as most doctor ask a few question about health habits such smoking, drinking, and such. At ever doctor appointment he mention that he smokes marijuana. So they want him to take piss test. Well it comes back in there terms "dirty" 

So know meds. Regis is mental ill and someone like that you just don't jerk there meds around. Someone like that you have a plan to get them though it. His brain has either a chemical and or wiring issue. So pulling the rug from him could get a way different result them some who is normal. The stress of it could end him in to a BEHAVIORAL HEALTH UNIT OF A HOSPITAL and closes one is in Coeur D alene. 

So hopeful next week we can come up with workable plan. It just plain not right how they treat the mentally ill mostly without money.

I lack the skills expressing myself using my voice and word why they use the term verbally or verb isn't how I would express one self. Personally I would use the term adjective is words that express one self. I could be all wrong.

So I feel more confident expressing myself through my blog and youtube because I use my words is another story. 

I done a few youtube videos and it getting easier. Confession time...It getting easier but I am not total relax doing videos. I feel like my mind is mainly stuttering and my tongue  is all twisted about.

My art is one way I express myself and would be interested having someone who has degree in art and psychology and tell me about myself and why I did these piece, and what do they mean.  

Trip down to Spokane tomorrow to see my youngest and his family. He has big backyard where we can social distance. Anyhow Washington has mask mandate and I feel safer there. 

Coffee is on

Today Is Thursday August 18 2020, This Is What Happen

 Hubby had his doctor appointment and I like a doctor who takes the patient words and spouse in consideration. They had him on TRAZADONE and after four days it pretty much quite working. The word 'Antipsychotic" is little uncomfortable but they put him on SEROQUEL in hope to calm his brain. Thinks way to much. The doctor said she didn't like to use label when I ask about what diagnosis might be. On the hand I wonder if she is trying to be kind. Then briefly brought up PERSONALITY DISORDER and she agreed with me. We all have some type of personality disorder because the world isn't perfect. No one I knew grew up Ozzie and Harriet, Leave It To Beaver, or Brady Bunch. So his next appointment is in 30 days unless there issues that comes up. He needs to get hold of the lady who runs behavior health at the clinic we use. I brought up to the doctor today about me having some talk therapy and jump thought the insurance hopes. She said it would be a lot easier and no rocking boat with my insurance carries, if I talk my primary carrier. Hubby and I have different doctors.

I accomplished some part of goal. I iron, organize and stored some fabric. Then I went with some craft supplies and got them in there proper storage. Even a little forward movement makes me feel better. I never claim to be smart but if I didn't get more fabric rest of year. It would be good choice.

Been creeping up my weight. It seem hard to juggle the three main part of losing weight. Burning calories, keep calories in check, and plenty of water. 

Couldn't figure out letter "H" for the food theme "Artist trading Cards" well I came with ham and hand mixer. Still stretching my rough draft for six pentacles. It in there in my vision part of my brain, finding it a bite of struggle. 

If it all work tomorrow  out I am planning to take my client a day of doing arts and crafts. Then Sunday I believe I will do one more video for the month. I feel I wasn't clear mainly about my ideal for a one payer system or medicare for all and my flat taxes. But I am sure I will find something else to chit chat about. 

Coffee is on

Today Is Monday August 17 2020, This Is What Happen

 Decided to do a video...Coffee is on

Today Is Saturday August 8 2020, This Is What Happen

 Right now I feel disappointed in my life. I want to blame stupid people. But then there my responsibility of choices that I made and make. Not going to therapeutic on you all. I could of done____________or should of done________. There certain things we find comfort in. But the main question is it good for you all way around. I know if I was more productive I would feel better about myself. Confession time...Quite a few times I have trouble finding the balance in it all. When I plan for week activities and goals I sometime I put to much on my plate and then I become frustrated. The if I don't plan and carry them out I have guilt. 

I did get the three ghost hunting filmed but for some reason I couldn't get blogger to work. PART ONE  PART TWO and PART THREE

Our county fair is going on and one local news sort got some PICTURE and as you notice non of people have mask. Statement time....It real rages me about there no mask on any of these people. I real miss our fair but I don't feel safe there. I have to wonder what numbers will be like in next two weeks. 

Since Murphy and I was going to town to get a few thing. Liz need a cabinet glued and we had to long clamp bars to hold it together. She gave me a roll of aluminum siding. But before Liz I drop off package over at Regis. Last place was safeway and spend just under $40. 

I don't know if I told you about my dad being tied to trees. What I understand he use to be tied a roll of trees back in Michigan. And he would untie himself and move down to another tree, then retie himself to tree.

Still working on my  version of six pentacles and I am doing it as a warehouse. I want to put and END CAP at end of rolls. Only one thing I cam up with is alligator. I know it sound weird. Maybe it something I should think about, SIX PARAGRAPH For me to move on creative activity I need to organize. "If" and there that uncertain word "If"...I spend 20 to 30 minute working on organizing my art supplies and other area I would be head of game. On one my flights home from Medford Oregon I saw a guy who had his art supplies nicely compacted. I know I mention his orderly and his reply was quite simple...Just can't  come up what he said. But it was wise. If I want to do a creative project it would be easier to purchase the supplies and the odds would be I have them some place around my home. It been while since I mention putting a small creative studio in our basement. The space wouldn't hold over ten people comfortably. Had no desire do it full time. Have it open 12 hours a week. If you every google about my area of Bonners Ferry, Boundary County Idaho. In simple term I am the odd duck and there a small percentage of us here. The other side of pancake "The election of 2020 I won't be casting my ballot for Donald Trump" and he will carry my home state of Idaho. We only have four electoral votes. Now I know people won't be knocking my door down to use my studio. I am wondering to myself why does this bother me. Since I can only handle a small amount. Then have I real done anything toward it. The straight up answer is "No" I could of and should of worked on getting myself in shape to handle the ceramics molds, plus there the organizing. And last thing I need is a small bit of capital and yes I did save out of my paycheck. But I sat nothing aside for this. Statement time...It hard to be the odd duck and know there other here like me. But to fit in you have to be or it seems to be you strong  Trump supporter and to me that means to hate and have a heart full of prejustice. Hate isn't good for anyone and it get you know wear.

Had fried rice with chicken in it. since the weather getting hot hubby and I are going mountain drive.

Coffee is on

Today Is Thursday August 13 2020, This Is What Happen

 

This for now is last photo of our trip to greenwood graveyard in spokane. The other ones will be video clip and I have to use youtube. I wonder why a robe or blanket draped over. My question is symbolic of it.

Work day was quite. Nothing new and usual I am happy with that. After Regis Appointment, he and I drove over to Riverside and looked at the local fairground parking lot. It was about half full and as we looked across the way, look like nearly no one had a mask. Like I said yesterday I'm not attending and I feel safer in my neighboring state of Washington.

I talk to Qunella a short while ago and we talked about her upcoming cataract procedure. Well afterward she stop in at our local meat market. Well she like me and other small percentage who wears a mask. And they made fun of her wearing a mask. 

She believes there Trump supporters. I also guess the same. But I'm fairly sure a lot of people in my area going to be disappointed on election, about Trump not getting a second term.  

Hubby and I briefly talked about what we would like to do once we retire. He into science and thought a good quality microscope which is fine. I like to look at textures, shapes and such. For myself I suggested  it would be cool to go and see some art exhibits. 

Coffee is on

 

 

Today Is Wednesday August 12 2020, This Is What Happen

 The hardest part for me on blogging what to start with first. Regis and I went ghost hunting at Greenwood and Mt Nero graveyard. Well I am person who believe we are surrounded by all sort of energies. We call them whatever we want.  Spirits to me comes in diverse, just like us mortal humans.

Now I will share some photos and did get some video, but for some reason I can't load them until my blog. Look like I am going to directly though you tube. Confession time...I wish we/I invited Liz. See I thought she was going to get ready to go down to Utah, tomorrow. And she would want to get ready. Well I like to return in October and include Liz. Why October the price of going to Spokane. Plus the first part would be better because of weather. Usual the later part of October it wet and raining. Two best time to ghost or spirit hunt is first of May or end of Oct. 

 

Have to say the older tombstone had some pretty interesting markings. I know the marking usual meaning something. Like phlox could possible mean unity. Plus I am not even sure if those smaller flowers are phlox.

 

We stop a few minutes at Jewish graveyard, less 2 acres. Just google "Spokane Jewish population" and it .5 percent. And Spokane county population is a little over a half million people.

Main thing I notice is there markers are generally not as fancy. Everyone one had  a PEBBLES on them. I seen graves with pebbles in the regular graveyard never notice any. And usual leaving COINS is usual hook with military.

More photos and such coming up this week. 

We stop in at B&B hobbies and Regis I believe he picked up 3 or 4 models. I got two rockets and the engines, and wadding to launch them. When boys was young we did rocket and enjoyed them.

Stop at Northtown mall and went into couple of novelty stores. Neither one of bought anything there.

Well it only can be wild or an education guess. Murphy blood pressure was sort of all over place. Well my best guess found out he didn't take his medication correctly. Right after he eats or not long after his blood pressure drops. I don't think it dangerously low but lower than it should be.

I also have blood pressure issues. I should be taking my blood pressure more than I do. Ok one time I was in store and they had one of those blood pressure machine. So I stuck my arm in cuff and push the button. Well it read so low and actual if my blood pressure was that low they would been no way I could of even came close to operating a blood pressure machine. 

I know he worries about me catching covid. Completely understand his worries and fears. I've notice that a small percentage of our community takes this serious. I am no  wiz but I understand basic BIOLOGY , VIROLOGIST and ALGORITHM Plus I am long ways from doctorate in any field.

I felt a lot safer in stores in Spokane only seen one or so without a mask. Plus they stayed there social distance. 

My community I real don't feel safe from the covid, lack of mask wearers. Let me say in last week or so more people having them on.

I thought it would be wise to cancel our county fair. Well they didn't. Plain and simple I am not going. If our community start out on better foot with this covid. I would of entry a few things and put my mask and went. Not this year.

Murphy called up his brother Earl. I wasn't home but the conversation was a positive one. They haven't spoken for ages. I'm glad it went well. Plus hubby had dishes done, picked up the house and trim blossom off the tomatoes 

Coffee is on

  

 

Today Is Tuesday August 8 2020, This Is What Happen

 I start once again to draw something that related to terms and meaning of charity, community, string attached and or inequality. I was advise or suggested that I start with aisle. Getting the depth is tricky. This drawing been in my mind for ages or ok my third eye.

It been a while since had a dream I could recall. I found this old photo of about 5 to 8 naked boys I would guess from ages of 11 to 14 years old. Super thin not filled out and two of these boys in this picture was my son. It was all in good taste. The room I would guess is possible sauna. It had wet cement floors, a wooden bench and wooden walls. The photo was in a frame that you open like a book, off white in color. For reason my sons didn't want to say anything to their wife about this photo.

Hubby been reading about sleep hygiene. I guess as we age we worry or our health become more important to us.

Work went ok. Liz had the same clothes on. I had remind her she had same clothing for a while. I told her gentle "I like to see a new fashion statement, even if turn your clothes wrong side out" She heading to Utah with her son and his family. She ask me what I want from Utah I said find me some cotton fabric out of thrift store. I real don't need anything.

I figure with all project I need and want to do. I need to live well into my upper 80's After work I real don't do much. 

Been promising I would take Regis ghost hunting and I believe in spirits is among us. Excuse the pun but graveyards. Opinion time...They're the worst place to hunt and look for ghost cemeteries are just plain dead. Only reason they would be hanging around is there so attach to wear their body or ashes was put to rest. There plenty of lore to GREENWOOD. Plus I can get some steps in. I know Regis want to stop briefly at B&B HOBBIES Actual I want to stop in at ART SAVAGE but there not open. But hoping to a lease hit one thrift store.

Murphy did some canning of raspberries and I think he going to make some pickle beets. 

Coffee is on

Today Is Monday August 10 2020, This Is What Happen

 Not sure what should blog about. Nothing on my mind or it just mainly blank. My stress is leading to depression, although I can go through the motion of functioning. I did give my insurance a call about me getting therapy. Hubby and I are on different insurance. So marriage counseling is out. But couple counseling is in. There a few hoops I would have to go through if I decided. Well I might as well tell you the hoops. First thing I need to get a refruel from my general doctor. I can go to so my section with liaison therapist and then the therapist can send me to a regular psychiatrist. To see if I have mental illness or a personality disorder. If I come up with one of these I can have more counseling. The only people who possible don't have a personality disorder is someone who grew up Cleavers family from show Leave it to Beaver.

As for my last post I thought it would be fair to answer some question here or reply to the comments from Saturday the 8th post.

I was born here in Bonners Ferry grew up in Spokane. I've alway had interested in variety of  culture and things. As I just mention I like learning about all sort of things and I would love to attend a jewish service and closes on would be in Spokane. My husband has less 1% jewish in him and me 0.  But I know I have to wait until covid is done. I doubt we will leave this area right after retirement. We can drive to area with art and culture. Sandpoint would be closes one. Our house is paid and hopefully Trump is gone. 

Over on facebook I ask if anyone who plan to retire in next five years and what there plans. My answer...There a lot of incertains with our social security ( Trump want to mess with payroll tax) I have small I.R.A (Individual Retirement Account) but my monthly payment as best I can figure less than $1,000 a month. I am 60 and plan draw between 63 and 65...As being bored I can think of 100 and 1 project both creative and non. 

Today Is Saturday August 8 2020. This Is What Happen

Yesterday I was tired. I try to make my client life a little better. Yesterday I took Regis to Spokane. He is into doing model spaceship and ufo. Me personally when the boys was younger we did model rockets and  launch them. Our first store was going to be a model train store and we couldn't find it. He was looking for some N SCALE model train. It was for some of his diorama. Then we went up to B B HOBBIES and he found some rocket and believe godzilla. I didn't find anything that grab me. Then we stop at HOBBY TOWN and I believe Regis got few items and I got a rocket launcher. Well in Priest River we stop at the Priest River Community Thrift Store.

Me and my fabric. One of package I thought it was bundle of fabric, it wasn't. I just briefly look though the craft section. And there was a tote full of fabric. Well we didn't stay in there long. Only part of their customers had mask on and none of the staff did.  No plexiglass by the cashier either. Well if it wasn't for covid I would gave a four star. I only gave it a three star it was pretty crowd and not sure what or how they feel covid either. Other then that it had great prices, clean, organized, and wide selection of items.

Hubby and I talk about possible selling and moving. What we want a community. His thing is mainly the mountains. For me it would be diversity. Well there mountains here. But as for diversity it could be better. There more we would like in a community. I know we won't be getting everything on our list.

Hubby and I would like visit a Jewish Service and the closes temple or synagogue is in Spokane. I was surprised they was four different ones. Not sure what difference are....CEE of SPOKANE, BTof SPOKANE, C of SPOKANE and CH of Spokane. Well Washington has lot tighter range on covid. You just don't go into a store without a mask. 

Doing better feel less emotional drain. Actual in my weight I been pretty much the same. Even had a chance did little organization in place. Got all the bills paid, except the credit card. 

Coffee is on

 

Today Is Thursday August 6 2020, This Is What Happen

I decided it was my turn to share a story from my childhood. As many of you know my given name is Dora, and at that time my name related to the character DUMB DORA and even some of the teacher used my name against me.

Confession time...I would like to do a diorama but it gives me some the terrors. 

In 4th or 5th grade for art project we did at home we did a diorama. Mine was going to be a canoe by river scene. 

I put a lot of time and effort in it. My parents had birch rounds to burn in fireplace, and took the bark and made a canoe out of it. Took some of my mom heavier thread from her sewing. I took piece of kindling and some type clay and make axe and leaned it up against the stump that was made out of brown construction paper. Then had a little fire scene. With river and got some painted some glue down with sand.

For someone who was in grade school it came out excellent. But the teacher told me I wasn't smart or good enough. Plus called my parents up about it. My mother told them I did the project.

I fought all my life about my name. It didn't happen just that one time. I find more difficult and have a hard time understanding why adult behave this way.  More than my peers. 

 I found it was lot easier and safer to play not all that bright. 

 To this day I have horrible fear being falsely accused. Even if I was proven  not guilty. The ideal of it bothers me to no end.

Now people ask me if I was name after DORA THE EXPLORER actual I was name after two of my great grandma. 

I was real careful what I name my sons. There a part of me like a lot of things I would love to do a diorama 

Still feel a little emotional exhaust although a lot better. Still going to work and haven't done anything creative. 

Even if just organizing I am hoping I can start moving that way. 

Been working on some family history and found out there possible I have cousin that lives in Spokane only meant her few times. Learn her husband pass away two years ago and she quite the artist. 

Coffee is on

Today Is Wednesday August 5 2020, This Is What Happen

Not sure how our childhood affect both Murphy and I. Gee I wouldn't want to say my childhood was awful or great.  

With Murphy stop smoking pot and I am far from a train medical person. But see when my husband grew up he slept with knife under his bed. His parents fought some time until 4 in the morning.

He thought his dad was going to kill the entire family. The main goal was to protect his new baby brother at that time.

He talk to therapist and didn't have the proper chance for his brain to he health. Both his and my brain has trouble shutting down. 

Confession time...I get edgy when my thoughts are quite. I feel lost. 

His mom used to say "quite think or you will be in prison" and somehow he got introduced to marijuana. His brain settle down. After 50 years of smoking and now the smoke brings his blood pressure and pulse to dangerous level.

He always worked and he honestly loved working with tree. Neither one of us is stupid. Not trying to be braggadocious. From time Reagan was president and war on drugs it was quite popular to test the American Worker. So there was limited places Murphy could work. The tree farm was one of them. 

If it wasn't for the pot he would of done something real dangerous. 

He suffers from General Anxiety Disorder and the doctor thought because of his age shouldn't be on viserell and put him on LEXAPRO    

I feel emotional exhausted. I want to do things but I'm having trouble making decisions. Glad there no big choices to be made. This weekend I will pay off bills.

We sold our property on bench and today we got entire payment. So look like our income is not quite $2,197 a month.

Coffee is on

Today Is Tuesday August 4 2020, This Is Happen

It been a while since I saw my friend Laliotia. In winter she stays down in North Bend Oregon and she has property up what is call Camp nine. And she want to sell some of her property. See she is 75 years old and she has heart disease. Not sure if 40% is still good or the other way around.

Well she concerned about her health and can understand why such low mask wearers in area.

If more people had mask, over 75% 

I tried to do a mask and it was messed up. Sewed it together wrong. 

Murphy went to the doctor they give him some Trazodone for sleep and Vistaril. Well there treating it as withdraw anxiety.  

In two weeks he goes back to the doctor.

Hopeful in next few days I get a chance to have me time. I feel overwhelmed. Might sound crazy I need  time for my own thoughts. I am a INFJ main thing I need to recharge. 

Looking to get a T-Shirt with using the word "Pejorative"  

Coffee is on

Today Is Monday August 3 2020, This Is What Happen

I real don't do that many video, do to lack of time. And including I start with blogging, we then had dial up. 

I decided in this post I will continue about what was comment.

We have nice raspberries patch and to the north of it. I would love to put in a few blueberries and strawberries. We grown strawberries.

The main reason my husband is giving dope. Every Time he smoked his blood pressure and pulse went up. I don't think he really wants to give it up, but with making his heart race and blood pressure go way up. Not a good thing.

One thing pagan don't do is usual don't shun. And should be super careful about casting curses. Rule number one on casting curses. They can come back and bite you the hinny. Well I left the local rant and rave page over on facebook. Best way to explain them was bunch middle or Jr high bullies. I put myself on timeout. Or as some may say there being shun.  If I go back it will be after the election. 

With Trump wanting to delay the election til Covid. I believe it ruin his chance of getting reelected. I'm waiting to watch him toss a tantrum. 

The dream dabbling was real interesting. As pagan we keep track of dream and we discuss them and analyze each other. They do it once month.

My SECOND video of the month and I will two more. So a total of four.

Weigh in and coffee with my friend Qunella 

Today Is Sunday August 2 2020, This Is What Happen

It been quite day. Until I went on facebook and defended on something my husband and I was involved in. I will admit we had guilt. So did the other party. Now looking back I should of just ignore it. In the morning I will delete my part of conversation and take a break from our local rant and rave page. I should know better trying to have a conversation with an area who is Trump supporter. 

So true hindsight is so much better then front sight.

Picked some raspberries. Water the garden. 

We both drew our weekly oracle card or wisdom card. Mind was on communication and if anyone said communication was easy. Mostly on social media. I guess their not on it.....It lot safe to communicated through a creative outlet.

Murphy drew emergence since recently he stop smoking marijuana, there been some both positive and negativism in our adventure.

The negative part of him not smoking pot, he more aggressive and he acts before he thinks. We drove by someone place way North of Bonners Ferry a register sex offender. As we were driving by he flipped him off (Middle finger) and the guy wasn't out in his yard.

A truck from Canada was following us and he thought he flipped him off. Of crouse thinking it was directed at him. 

He did bring this behavior up with the therapist. Tuesday he goes into the regular doctor. We need to follow medicare protocol. Or either like banging your head against a brick wall. Fighting city hall.

For some reason he seems less negative. He is a pessimist and I'm the optimist.

Not excusing my husband behavior.   

This hasn't been easy and feel lot better letting it out, even if it on blog.

A pagan group out of Spokane once month has a thing called "Dream Dabbling" first time on zoom. I talked briefly about my train dream, and it was pretty much a consensus that I been on the same ole track and diversion of some type would be good for me..

Anther one brought up he had two earwig coming out of his jaw area. 

I believe they was a little over half dozen of us on dream dabble.

Calorie count over by quite a bit. Need more water and off to work tomorrow

Coffee is on     

July Report 2020

First time doing a VIDEO of monthly report. And I did get another mask done. Had a mask like this one before and left it some place.The only thing this one I sewed in a groceries tie thing, to fit better around the nose. Glad to see more people having mask on, in the local community. 

Coffee is on