Partially I Came To a Conclusion

 Been using the KANIKSU HEALTH SERVICE Bonners Ferry Office. I general been happy with there service and there staff.
At this time there having trouble restaffing there office up here with either doctors, physician assistant, or a nurse practitioner.
As the look to restaff, so in mean time there finding people to fill in. Which there only there for a short time.
Statement time...I don't go to the doctors not all that much. But when I go I want them to listen so I can develop a good rapport with them.
When I came in to the exam room. I talk to her nurse. No trouble and she came in and tells me "I don't believe anyone has diarrhea at 4AM"
Although I talk to anther person who uses the same medical facilities and she told this person she had what look like worms floating in the toilet.
She look at her and said "Oh you don't have worms"
Well she did listen to my stomach and there quite a bit of rumbling and such. So she guessing there some type of blockage. She suggest I try the other doctor I saw on this issues. Which was bisacodyl and milk magnesia.
Then they did take a stool sample. It been ship off.
And she did say some time basic walking does help with the digestion.
Well I talk to my hubby about the situation. We're going to start using the facilities down in Sandpoint unless they can staff the one up here.

Got Grand daughter Claudia Easter box ready. Found this box at one of the local thrift store and thought it would be perfect to put her Easter item in
And actual I'm not sure if there coming up or not. I text them and told them we're having an Easter lunch with my sister in law place.

Since I'm on the subject of Grand children both of my beautiful daughter in law are having babies. One is due mid July and the other first part of August.

Murphy and I put a new porch light by the kitchen door, or our side door. He said the next thing is to put in peak hole.
Also the pile in basement is getting smaller. That pile is for thrift store.

If Couldn't or Shouldn't Be An Answer

Question time... Have you every ask and if question or made if statement? I've known a few of my friends tell me there parents should of gotten a divorce.
Well at times I felt my parents should of never had children. And I know if this was true I wouldn't every been born or how much different things could of been. Not saying either in Negative or Positive. I believe we all need to experience life's negative and positives. Hopeful it all improves are lives and we become better people for it.
Please don't think I'm not trying to make a narcissistic or a humble statement about my self.

Before I went to work I went over by our fair grounds and took a short walk. It was quite windy. It usual is. I walk the road that follow the Kootenai river.

Murphy and I got dentist appointment tomrow morning. It been a good year since we been to a dentist.
Which was one of my health goals is going to the dentist. And there MEDICAL REASON FOR SEEING A DENTIST
Then to see a medical person about my digestion. I real don't like going to the doctor. Confession time...I have a fear of being come a hypochondriac.

Weigh in with my weight lost group. Sunday home weigh in I was up a little. Start to paint anther rock.

Coffee is on

Talk About Talk About

There time I'm total clueless what I'm going to even post on my blog. I even hold off on posting hoping or wish, not to hard. That something slightly small might happen so I can share something different.
Confession time...I'm not looking for to much excitement.
There been time I even come up with a new thought I could blog about. But I'm usual at place where I can't blog about it.

Finish up my next weekly in my bullet journal. I wonder why I even do one. My intentions for goal and planning is good, I would say.
But at first part of the week I keep on it and when comes to last part week. I don't mark anything toward the end of the week.

My weekly quote..."I really like the bohemian look, and I'm a great fan of mixing vintage and modern"

Most of my styles personal and fashion is well diverse. Quite a few of my clothing comes from places they sell use items.
There a few items I won't purchase though a thrift or charity store. Which undergarments, or make up.
Ok, I will if there in package that never been open.
It's strange how we look at our self. I had my hubby take four photos of me. His and my opinion different on which photo was the best.
It strange how we view things. He says I look distant and I call the look on my face as goof. But as human we're our own worst critic or we also have a hard time forgiving our selves.
On the right hand side of the blog I'm doing a poll...HOW DO WANT TO LOOK..

Got anther rock paint. I call it my friendly space creature. I got anther rock wash and it dried a little later I will base coat it. I'm going to try to paint a aardvark.

 At this time I won't go into all the issue with Liz. It fact she has salmonella. Her gall bladder is flaking off. At this time there also looking at two possible infection. But untill I know the result I may or maynot post it.
She one sick person.

This is first time that my digestion system work almost perfectly smoothly. Confession time...When I eat I wonder what will happen in the morning.
Dinner was chicken, rice and coleslaw. One thing I like in my coleslaw ins pineapples.

I guess there always something to talk about. But to me is more the important is have someone listen.
I try to listen and hear what other may be saying.

Coffee is on

A March

Today all around the United States there "March For Our Lives" I've posted my feeling on guns. Here local there having a counter march called MARCH FOR OUR RIGHTS.
I did contact my elected official about guns. Actual feel it waste of time and effort. Around here you see plenty of people caring fire arms in public.
Simple the Genie been let out of the bottle here in United States. The only thing I actual contact my elected officials is gun owner carrying and suggest that gun owner carry liability insurance.

Statement time...No one is trying to take way your guns, or mess with the second amendment....I don't fear my government taking my guns. But it has cross my mind if I go shopping that some unstable person might be in store with a gun. 

Snow off and on, although not much stuck. Murphy and I got a Safeway gift card for $50 and we decided to use it. We use Safeway for our pharmacy, and they had promotion that when you got your prescription you could earn a gift card.
Well we pick up $50.74 worth stuff. Now I call that almost right on the mark.
I did make a doctor appointment for Wednesday hopeful they might have some answer for my digestion. Confession time...I'm a little edgy about eating.  The thing is I don't feel bad.

Spent a little time working on my stamp collection. I collect stamps of people. We are all equal to god or goddess.Wouldn't it be amazing if they took an person off the street and make a postage stamp, some one you wouldn't hear in a history class.
Well I know this isn't Shakespeare. But I'm not sure who he is. Does anyone know who he might be.

When I got these brushes, didn't notice they had a re closer zipper thing. Today I did some painting on rocks.

This my friend Alice daughter dog "Finn" I wouldn't mind a little fellow like him. Not super tiny or nothing over 30 pounds.
Finn mom is Bronco Denver fan, a football team. So I got her one of my daughter law dogie BANDANA

Dinner is about done. Ham, bake potatoes, chard and applesauce. Not sure what we're drinking.

Coffee is on

They showed Up

Robin haven't been here long. Late afternoon I saw a Mountain Blue bird showed up at our bird feeder.

Took walk out around the place on the south side of our home there a sort of a herb bed and what every else might be planted. Well rhubarb is thing is planted there, and it doing lovely. I do like rhubarb crisp, pie, and wine.

Well what I call my freedom flower bed is now uncover, no snow. So I went and checked for snowdrop. Didn't see any.

I had headache most of the day. Hubby took Regis to his appointment. Which I was thankful for. 

My digestion system is quite right.  But it better then it was.

Not finding much on wages for doctors here.
Medical school is quite costly and we our a low income area and we get medical doctors that is horrible in debt and they stay for about year or two.
But since we're a low income area. There should be forgiveness of debt. I know our school dist offers for teachers. It base on student who receive free or reduce lunches, I just look at a cart and a family four (before taxes) if you your income is under $876 a week you could qualify for reduce or free lunch.
Meal price are secondary $2.90 and for the elementary are $2.80.
I got a little off. But I rather get a doctor simple when I go in that one won't be staying.
I just don't see why they charge for lunches at any school.

Been looking though the local animal shelter for a dog. I have no problem adopt one. But nothing pop up that I believe would be fit for us.

I been playing farmville and the counters ones. I'm not much on computer mostly  the violent ones. I rather help people, even if it a game.
It seem to help me unwind. I like to turn off my techie device at in 8 evening and watch the original star trek and the next generation.
Then off to bed around ten.

Coffee is on

It's Here

Spring here but no flowers, my flower beds are still cover with a bit of snow.  The one in front of big window has some plants popping up. No super early flowers in that bed.

The weather was lovely. A nice warm day but later on it became cloudy and little chili. Hubby did some trimming on tree's to south side of place.
Deer did some damage. There a nuisance.

Open your heart, mind, and spirit to welcome new growth.
Start your growth yesterday, today, and tomorrow. 
Tree branches are bare still to welcome birds back, giving them a place to start building a new nest.
Air is new and refreshing.
Robin is sign of warmth and new hopes and dreams
All is welcome to spring.

Slow and each day this week I been taking a little bit to the thrift store. There three thrift store in our area. Well what I been hauling is a Nativity set. So I need to make sure it arrives at the same thrift store.

Coffee is on

They Will Come

Shortly after yesterday post. I saw one female robin, a sign of spring. This morning as I was sitting at dinning room table looking out the window. In a tree there was a flock of robin.
As one can guess they came to build there nest, for new little ones.
First flower are the snowdrops and crocus. Flower bed which there in is still blanket with snow.

Might as well mention what happen before I took off to work. Which I can gartee not anything exciting. I try to do 3 basic chore around the place. If I don't take part in up keep of home. I feel like I failed.
So it not much I did load of wash, sweep the floor, and vacuumed.
Large boxes left of items to be haul off to local thrift store. Didn't or Couldn't lift the boxes. So I got two bags stuff them full, gladly got them to the thrift store.

This morning I went of to Regis after he finish up with his social worker. Clean, laundry, shopping, and took to convenient store for pouch of tobacco and cigars.
Well right now I'm trying to figure what going on with Liz. Actual getting my hours in with Liz can be difficult. She isn't a planner at all. And just look up if there possible reason if BI POLAR MIGHT HAVE TROUBLE PLANNING.
She has medical appointment this Wednesday that there prep things she need to on Tuesday. My guess is...It anyone guess she will make it or not.
I think she in a deep depression. I would guess it from the disappointment in hair coloring or being broke.
See when she shop money goes though her fingers, like a water going though a sieve.

Dinner fish, rice, and some veggie for dinner. Off to work I'm still waiting.
Got start on a few art/spiritual project. The safe I drew is part of my hermit card. And stared to paint a rock
Coffee is on 

It Might Be Scary Or Not

We all are vain in some way. Or a lease I know I am. But I know I'm a less then I was young. Leonard Nimoy, the person who played Mr Spock on the first star trek. Did a photography project called FULL BODY PROJECT. Over weight and some with out make up.
I figure out how to do a poll on face book page. And just place a poll on my right side of my blog. Below Coffee Drinkers.
Editor Note...I deciced to move my poll I'm doing. Right before my profile.
And I googled people with out there make up and quite a few celebrity had them self photography with out make up. I'll let you take look on your own. I'm not up on pop culture. But some I wouldn't
recognize.
But on the full body project I have to wonder about there health.

Been trying to get out a little more. Snow is off the road around my neighborhood. So a lease I can get out and take bit of walk.
My goal is to a lease to get in 5,000 steps and drink 32oz water.
This morning I walk a little on our road. The house next to us sold. So look we getting new neighbor. Not sure who or what type of neighbors is coming in. At this point I will consider them good honest people.

Not sure why but I wonder if tree's communcated with each other or others. But as I was looking back toward our place. I saw something that I found attractive.

Yet haven't seen a robin. A few people around here have. Late morning Murphy and I went out in veggie and prude the raspberries. Mainly remove the dead ones from last season.

Still quite muddy in garden with snow. Just toss the branch over the fence. Will haul them off once the snow melts back a bit.

Coffee is on

I Had Question

Earlier today I was going to ask on facebook or take opinion poll. The trouble I'm having is there only letting me two choice. Sometime in life we have a need for two answers to a question.
My question for poll is...Question time...How do you want to look?
1. Sexy
2. Rich
3. Healthy
4. Fun
5. Smart
6. Classy
I bet there plenty of more answer. I will figure it out.

I got my hair cut. I have to admit my last cut was hard to grow out. One of those cuts you need to grow out and start over.
When it comes to my hair I like a more of wash wear. Maybe once in while I rather put a little moousse and add little fun lift to it.
When I was younger I would spent hours on my hair. I had a major vain thing about my hair.
Wouldn't walk out either with my make up.
During high school I wasn't ready. I believe I had my make up on but my hair wasn't balance. One side had more or less curls then other.
I look at my mother and said "I can't go out like this my audience a waits me". In short of it...I was basicly toss out of the house.

Recently I start to put on little make up. My make up sure don't look like this...I find it intersting and fun. Two main reason why I wouldn't do this. The time factor and things are pretty simple and you would stick out like big sore thumb.

I got my self a smart phone. I got LG not expensive one. But I belive it will serve me just fine.
 I been using a flip phone and gave my old flip phone to my hubby.
I still want to get a fit bit. But that needs to wait we got some up coming bills.

So for now I'll use the one I bought though T.O.P.S it works fine.

I just did up my bullet journal for the up coming week. I usual draw one or two things. This week I drew a fig and put quote...I saw myself sitting in crotch of a fig tree, starving to death, just because I couldn't make up my mind which fig I would choose...
I need to do some up dating on my budget and finanical page.

It was nice and clear here in North Idaho

Coffee is on

Mending Of Clothing

Haven't mend clothes for years. My mom mend the family clothes. And I know how and refuse and actual find it a frustrating chore.
Confession time...I rather make a piece of clothing from scratch. 

Any how as mending I came to post about mending our hearts, mind, and spirit.

There plenty of mending we can do in our society. Well we move and things have been mend or fix. Although there plenty of things to do.

In very resent history young people took to the streets, on gun control. I'm not giving my opinion on my  GUN since it was done recently.
I could fine any links to see if there was sometime of coverage for those 17 who was shot it Florida, that our local schools here if the had a walk out. But BOISE area did.
Something sure isn't right that we live in such violent society.

TOY 'R' US is closing or sell it store. We getting less and brick and mortar stores. More and more takes care of business on line. I'm one of them.
But the conversation needs to take place on those empty building.
There a shortage of low income housing. Could possible these building be use as low income resident or possible community center.

Today I went and did some shopping for my clients. And when I was going though the check out line. I always ask the clerk how her day was going. And hopeful have a short positive conversation with them.
To find out the checker had a little bit of bit of ruff day.
I said I'm sorry but every so often we need a hard day, so we appreciate the good days. And there a lot more of them.

Today I took Regis today to have some lab work done. Well not going into medical mumble jumble.
His orthpedic doctor want some I believe a sample from his hip. Well they send a fax to the lab department and found out they don't handle what the doctor wanted.
So they weren't sure which department would handle. So we went over to the registration department a very nice lady.
Well maybe in 10 minute or so we found out we need to go to the radiology department
 Well they were full up and had one appointment open tomorrow, at one in the afternoon.
Well yesterday Liz and I went shopping. I knew what I needed and what. She tends to try to spend her self happy.
Find out she even talking about selling part of her BREYERS HORSE COLLECTION. Well her monthly bills are paid. She has funds on her ebt card. She will make it though rest of the month.

But then she tried coloring her hair a fun blue color. I thought it would take hold since she a blond. It didn't
I hope she doesn't become to depress. She suffer from agoraphobia. Hopeful this doesn't put her in a funk.
I suggest she tries to get hold of company, and see if she could get a refund. I don't under stand why it didn't take.

One of my grandfather Edgar sayings..."If you don't like me in my Thursday coveralls you don't need to bother to like me my Sunday best"

Coffee is on

Made It

Goals are some time hard to make. Not sure how hard or easy goals should be. If it was overly hard, wondering who would try to move forward in life.
If it was to easy. I could see it being one would not try to move forward.

I had a goal as for loosing weight. I want to be in or under the 215(97.55) and today weight in at T.O.P.S was 215.75 (97.8)
Well before next quarter my quarter weigh in will be a lease or less, 210 (95.2)

As I took Regis over to his cogitative therphy. I went for a short walk around the hospital.
Not much time with Liz. She has a doctor appointment over at our local hospital. It a consultation with a gastroenterlogist, and surgeon.

I was thinking of what age I'll be retiring. Longer I wait more I will receive. Here in united states one can retire at 62. It base on what you paid in and how many years you been in work force.
At my current wages and who know when raise will happen. Or what value of a dollar will be. But if I retire at 62 on my earning I will get about $620 a month.
But I'm thinking of waiting to I'm almost 63 and three fourths. should receive about a little over 800 a month.
Well basically I don't want to qualify for medicaid or combo of both medicare and medicaid. Doing personal care and dealing with medicaid I don't want to deal with them at all. Usual I just shake my head.
I don't want work or have a job that rules most of my day. There more to life then punching a clock.

Right now and it from 2017 maxium amount is $3,538 and if one get under $750 a month and if your over 65 years or older. Then we have a supplement insurance called SSI. But there limited resource one can have

Coffee is on

Before Work But After Morning Chores

I mange to get a short walk in morning. As I was walking I could hear the train down in canyon. I live up on PLATEAU with plenty of grasses and trees. One can see mountain all around.
But had to wonder where it was going and it was hauling. Although I believe it fright was good for a lease some wonderful person.

I did mange to do two simple morning chores. Did some vacuuming and put the dishes away. Hubby now is doing dishes.

My son Bart brought up my suburb which he got at car auction for me. Paid slightly under $500 and had to order a mirror for the left side.
Had to get that fix. Simple it un-safe feature and also I could receive a ticket.
It at the shop. And the wiring plugs don't match. Well I can roll down the window and adjust the mirror. But we're wondering if the bolts and such will line up. If it doesn't I will have to send that one back.

Not much on going on to see doctors. Well I see enough of them because of my job. Confession time...I only meant one though my work I thought was a complete ass.
But I'm leaning toward making appointment with my regular doctor. Or should I say clinic. The doctor I had move to the southern part of the state. And as far as I know they haven't found a replacement.
The way my insurance I have to go my and you notice I used the word "my". Well I don't have a primary caregiver.
Confession time...I'm tired of trying to see and figure out what food I can eat or not. 
Simple I need a primary care giver to send a recommendation to a immunologist.
I'm guessing the local clinic I go to could send the paper work to immunologist.
Once again because of my job. It's good to keep your medical records with your primary care giver, and have good comuncation with your primary care giver.

It's getting time for me to eat a little lunch. Pumpkin seeds, apple and few shrimps. And head to work

Coffee is on

An Hour Up

Sun went down some time after 6:45, and sun will come up shortly after 7:00
The county road in front of my home is pretty much melt out. But a little muddy. Looks like I can back to some walking.

Murphy and I went to visit his sister Faith. Her and her husband Heniz is doing fine.

Who Are Trying To Measure Up To

We or lease some how we give our self some type of grade though out life,  just like in school.
Still doing it.

I just start my next week bullet journal. Usual the first thing I put in is my health goals and plans. First thing as for my health I put in steps if I make my 5,000 steps I color in a square.  Not sure when I will increase my step goals. for sure I made my 5,000 steps or more this past week, not sure what today (Saturday) will be.
Water that I put down 36oz or more is also 3 times this week.
I understand 10,000 is what one should try to OBTAIN.
Then weigh in twice a week. I found out if I weigh in more then that...It seem I come to two conclusion...If I loose I give my self permission  to celebrate with foods. If I gain I give my self permission to punish my self with foods.

I can complete understand the reason behind the 24 times zones. But the ideal of having to change our clock twice a year, to me seams to be so out dated.
Things would work out if we didn't change our CLOCK TWICE A YEAR and if I was to be pointed ruler of the world...Statement time....I hope no one is taking me serious about ruling the world...
It would be great if everyone set there clock and head a half hour and leave it.

I was trying to find out what is actual COST OF LIVING in my area. One son lives in MEDFORD OREGON and the other lives in SPOKANE VALLEY WASHINGTON, near liberty lake.
But I have to wonder how they came up on how they would grade a certain place.

We might not grade in the same format as we are in school. We do judge our self and it seems we our own worst critic and we sure have a hard time forgiving our self.

Coffee is on

Mathability of Flexability

Plan A actual became Plan B. For my evening things I want to start or even complete. Was to put the dishes away, and paint a rock.
Confession time....I was stupid and had an ice cream cone....see to much dairy and beef product plays a bottomless pit of un-pleasure.
So a little more trips to the bathroom was force upon me.
Forget putting the dishes away and rock painting. Well I did get chance to spend some time working on the locker hook rugs.

Yellow can represent FLEXIBILITY. There a few groupings flexibility can fall under. But the important thing is how you handle your flexibility. Remember we have choice and free will.

Never thought I was moving fast enough on my goals. Every week in my bullet journal one of my on going task is when I head to work, to grab from the pile of item in basement and take it to the thrift store. Sound simple enough.
I actual meant to take a bag or box in each and every day. Well it hasn't happen that way.
This morning as I was grabbing some ole bedding and actual quite bit is gone.

Last few days I been working on a locker hook rug that for Sawyer and Betty. Looks like I will be using up one of my bag of fabrics. Actual I'm starting to wonder if I have enough cut. Well rug making is one way of up cycling.

We have snow on ground that seems like long time. Today when I took Regis trash out to the main garbage box.
The snow melt under the trees. It's been so long since I stood on actual bare ground. I must just stood there for a few minutes and day dreaming.
Well there not sure quite why Regis hip pop out let lone twice. The orthopedic surgeon is stump why it pop out, not once but twice.
The surgeon said something like this haven't happen in like over ten years. So by his cat scan it shouldn't happen. So there investigating.
I sure hope they figure what's going on. I can't see this being any fun.

My last weigh in at T.O.P.S I was down

Coffee is on

Me and Nothing

Can't say I accomplish much. A day of looking up the odds and ends with google. Now some one can just say "google it" and usual then or lease I do. It comes over whelming.

Not going into much detail. I've meant all sort of people and including my self who had some degree of adverse trauma in there life.
Well I keep hearing of resilience. Why some have it and other seem to struggle though any adversity in life.
It effect everything in there life. It pretty much controls every little part of a life that is not lived at fullest

Trying to figure my work schedule for the up coming week. One client is such a morning person, and that's me. My other client isn't one what so every.
Well in past on Monday I would go over to Regis around ten. Before that he has his social worker. Stay to around one or two. I would like to go over to Liz right after wards, as one can see her social worker is there
Then Liz has her social worker come in around one or two. So a lot of time I had a good hour or more to kill.
I'm not starting work until like 11 in the morning or so. At Regis and finish up around three. Then go over to Liz and stay to 6 or 7 in the evening.
Not a big fan of swing shift.

Coffee is on

February check in 2018

The warmest day in February was 50 (10) on the 9th
The coldest day in February was -5 (-21) on the 20th
Average high for the month was 33 (0.5)
Average low for the month was (-5)
There was 8 times I made my step goals of 5,000 or more for month.
But not trying to make excuse up but 10 days I didn't record the weather or steps.

From Random post for Feb PERSON INSIGHT

You are inner-directed and analytical.

You are philosophical: you are open to and intrigued by new ideas and love to explore them. You are solemn: you are generally serious and do not joke much. And you are independent: you have a strong desire to have time to yourself.

Your choices are driven by a desire for discovery.

You are relatively unconcerned with both achieving success and tradition. You make decisions with little regard for how they show off your talents. And you care more about making your own path than following what others have done.

Coffee is on