Fudge

Not talking about the fudge you make around the holidays. I've always consider my self an honest person.
I believe nothing is a 100% maybe a test that you took in your school days. If one paid attention and study hard there would be a good chance you might ace a test, get a 100%
Life don't work that way.
I just finish watching a documentary on (dis) honesty THE TRUTH WHY WE LIE I've consider my self 97% honest. I would like to be a 100% honest but the world won't let you...Will explain in short bit please bare with me.

I know most religion has there codes of ethics and since I'm here in United States and still majority of the people here are Christians they talk about the 10 Commandments and there one that deals with lying #9 "You shall not bare false witness against your neighbor" I guess this might only contain to making up stories or vicious lies...So I decide to put in a google search "What does different faith says about lying" well there plenty pages.

Now is it ok to lie under our first Amendment or not. We have right to freedom of speech and I see nothing on about being honest.
I know YELLING FIRE in an empty theater is illegal and wrong. Then when someone goes to court as a witness or gives a testimony there ask to tell the truth. And if they lie it consider PERJURY


When I first start to help people in there home and first I was honest and found out my pay checks being short.
Let me take a minute and I know I explain how medicaid here in Idaho runs there in home care system.
If a person feels they could use help in there home. On the form asking help from the department of heath and welfare there a few lines one nerds to fill out. Possible get someone to come and help you in your home. Once that done you sent it down to our state capital of Boise. Usual in about two weeks a Medicaid nurse calls and makes appointment to come out and visit they have a list of question and depending on your answer she decide how many hours you will get...For sake of math I'll use one of my client since I know how it broken down

My client is assign 15 hours a week or 64 hours a month. Usual the time we're assign is fair. But if we go over we don't get paid.
So at first not knowing any better.
Let say week one I work 17.25 hours...So the hour I would actual get paid is for 15 hours and I'm being short 2.25 hours
Week two comes around and I only work 14 hours and the add hours I work from the previous week do they give it to me. "No"
Week three comes around and I do the 15 hours which I will get paid.
Then there four week I work 15 hours which is my assign amount.
Now its the end of the month and they might be some time left and for the sake of facts let say I have 8 hours left of the 64 hours monthly allotment. So I put in the 8 hours but remember the 2.25 hours I'm shorted.
What I do now is fudge a little. Confession time...If one week I go over my allotted time and the up coming week I will squeeze in a few extra hours.
I rarely go over and each of my client gets there 15 hours a week or 64 hours a month.
If I didn't fudge a little every so often my check would be short.

Coffee is on

If Only

We all have something to say and everyone story is worth listening to. Last few nights I been dreaming.
One night I dream I had kidney failure.
Then the next night I dream I was in a small room with a small window about size of walking in closet it must been upstairs because of the pitch of the ceiling. There was neatly fold fabric for sale and I recall going thought it. I recall one pieces was grass green gingham with about 12 inch pink gingham shape like a heart.
There was quite a bit of yellow fabric and I was looking for fall prints.
There was anthor room in my dream and I decide to look in. The main thing recall in this office was a printer and place where one sorts there papers.
I was in my old creamic studio it was complete empty and I was trying to order paints. I saw my reflection in window and it was doing things and moving completely different them me. It was even speaking directly to me and not in kind way or tone.
Question time...Does Anyone know what these dreams might mean?

The month is finishing up. Murphy and I took a trip up to Roman Nose Lake. Well the roads was horrible. I was about to say "Pot holes that would eat an entire rig" not true maybe this would be a better "24 inches deep and 4 foot across" and usual it was felt on everyone of them.
I've taken mussle relaxer and very little relief.
I've been doing some light excerise and I know if I don't move it will be come worst.

So I'm going to go with Liz to her church,LATTER DAY SAINTS tomrow. We're planing to visit different faith. Every other week we're going to visit different faith. This will be a new one for me.
I've mention this also Regis and I'll ask Liz son Paul if he wants to join in.
I ask them if there any faith they won't visit. For me it would have to be the JEHOVAH WITNESS and if any of them wants to visit. We would diffently leave town.
I know I want to visit the UNTARIAN UNIVERSALISM and the other three possible METHODIST is my dad was a raise one, and UNITY CHURCH.
I know I will get something postive out of it...I know not what...and there and exlent chance I will find a topic to blog about.

First of July our state of Idaho everything goes in effect new laws and budget which could possible mean raises...Idaho seem to be a good supporter of our 45th President Trump...You know there into cutting funding for Medicaid.
I haven't seen a raise for three years here what I posted on my facebook page..
A DOUBLE RANT..My paycheck came mail and since Idaho is a very conservative state and we have President Trump in office I thought for sure I would of gotten a raise..No Nothing a big fat zero...If I got under fifty cent raise I was going to do sommersault and if was over fifty cent I was going to do a back flips

DECREASE MY CHANCE OF INJURYING MY SELK FROM ANY GYMNASTIC MOVEMENT

Regis who I take care had a left hip replace and put in a request for more hours tempory increase in hours. At this time he gets 15 hours a week or 64 hours a month. For this person to get more hours they want him to pay for it

YOU GOT TO BE KIDDING ME...THIS PERSON INCOME IS ABOUT $750 A MONTH

Need to do a few light chores got my August plans and so forth set up in my bullet journal.

Coffee is on

I Know But It's The Truth

Question time...Have you made simple goal or project to do and it should take less then no time to do them? And for some strange reason there not getting done. I'm guilty of this.

I couldn't tell you how many time I attempt to clear off my dinning room table. Confession time...I like a table cloth with a nice bouquet of flowers on a table.
Not giving my self permission but it's looking a lot better.

The other day I went though part of one of my file cabinet and found manuel for items that we no longer have. So they head to recycle bin.
Then other old important stuff like our property taxes, anything more then 5 years it now in a box ready to be burn.

Yesterday was quite a day or long day at work. Regis got out of the hospital from hip operation and is recovery quite fast.
So he getting in home physical therapy and when some one new coming in he gets anxiety. But once they meet them he usual fine.
So I end up putting in 7 hours yesterday and before that I had 4 hours put in. He has 2 hours left for the week.
So tomorrow he has a doctor appointment and I know this week I will be over.
Now if we go over our allotted time we may or may not get paid. Usual the time allotted for the clients one can get all there chores done.
But there been a few times mostly because of medical reason I end up going over time.
Statement time...This total pisses me off I may or not get paid. And it could take up to six months for someone up the ladder to decide if my request is warrented 
But the way medicaid handle request for increase in hours makes no sense at all...To me it would make more sense if they did the increase in hours before one left the hospital.
No this what they do...Once the clients comes home from the hospital one calls there company field supervisor and say "Hello and so so is home from the hospital and they need extra care and I'm putting a request for hours"
So your supervisor makes a trip up to see what your saying is true. In this case my supervisor is driving a 130 miles to see if this is all true.
She takes a photo and goes back to her office and fill out papers to send to medicaid and see if they will increase the hours.
But in the mean time your client needs extra help and by the time it's approval one might not need the extra time.
It makes no sense how it's handle. Like I said above it should be set up before they leave the hospital.

So tonight I'm heading to a general gathering of one my pagan meeting and we will be covering healing.

Coffee is on

Pay Back Can Be A Little Bit Of Bite

I try to advoid some words affraid they might bite me. I can only come up with two is never or won't. Well Murphy retire and I'm still in the work force. But when Murphy was in the work force when we came home he hardly lift a finger to help.
At times I would even make the remark since you have a W-2 your exempt from household duties. In some way his job in the tree nursury is a lot harder then mine in some aspect.
But now I'm working and bring in a pay check I believe I'm exempt from house hold chores.
I just can't quite do it back to him...So in the morning I try to 3 chores this morning I start a load of whites, vacume the carpet, and swept the floor.
Then in the evening I did 2 chores. Put dishes away which Murphy did and the other one was I went though one of our file cabinet and found old papers, which need to be burn.

I'm starting on August bullet journal and did this weeks goals and project. Saddly my bullet journal is up stair and don't recall every thing I put in it.
I know one of my goal is to drink a lease 40oz of water, and my big project is to clean out my one flower bed.

This evening I had a few minutes and start to do a few more stiches on a locker hook trivet I'm making one of my cousin.
And the other project is cut more fabric strips for Liz rag rug.

Weigh in at T.O.P.S in the morning. I haven't been for last two meetings. Iusual weigh my self on Tuesday and Friday.
Since I haven't been to my weight lost group I decide to weigh my self on our home scale and I was down to 221.25.
But I believe it should be a good weigh in.

Coffee is on

It's Been A While But No Need To Bore You

 

It's been a while since I posted. Please don't get all excited thinking I haven't gotten the problem resolved with my lap top and getting the photo off it.

Both my son enjoy the great outdoors and do quite bit of hiking. I'm in no shape to hike like they do. I could get my self in better shape if I stay off the computer.
So as I blog I thought I would share some photos.

We been picking quite a few raspberries and other veggies. This evening we had fresh summer squash from the garden.
Like I said if I spent less time on the lap top, maybe no Let just speak the truth I waste a lot of time on computer. Just google stupid crap. Question time...What sort of stupid stuff do you waste your time on the computer?
I just can't pin point one thing. Confession time...I waste plenty of time on the computer.

Then I've been quite a bit of things with my pagan group. I know I told you about our summer celebration.
Because our head pristess is having some health issue. We won't be doing much for August which we celebrate LAMMAS anther pagan group is having one. Depends on weather Murphy and I might go. It just been to hot.
But we're planning to have a Mabon or the fall equinox. Not sure what we will be doing but some want to go camping and others don't.
As like all of them we be merry and celebrate.
Then a little planning went for Samhain. As many you know is Halloween. One of member Debbie pass on the first part of June.
We want to do our circle ritiual around her marker. Then we're taking about going to one of our local restrunt.
But the very last thing with finger cross I'm going to an event about LUCID DREAMING

Now for the crafts I been working on. Still been slow and haven't completed nothing. I start a locker hook trivet for one of my first cousin.
And Murphy like a loose weave crochet dish  cloth I do. He does dishes, so I should do one up. Anyhow if I got going there nothing to do.

Yes. I should mention my belove crazies. Some days I feel like I'm part of three ring circus. Well two things I don't like when I first arrive at work...Is one my client horrible upset with tears and hands me an envolpe of a letter of some type.
Or this one...I'm so glad you showed up.
Well then the circus starts.

Eating been in check pretty good. I've kept to my eating planning and even when I went out.
I got a good deal on the TRAIN although flying would be cheaper. But I want to ride the train there.
I'm going to Medford Oregon to see the ECLIPES and my son Sawyer is pretty much in path of it, over 90%

Coffee is on

Yes I Did But Not Willing

I had planning to blog each day this week. I was dead tired from Regis operation and he look like he doing ok.
I stop in and brought him a vanillia shake.
Only stay about 15 minutes. I stop in to see how he is doing. Figuring a long visit would be to much.
So he gave me a plastic bag to keep track of and I brought that in. I never looked in it, so I'm pretty much clueless what was going on.
So he ask me if his pot (Marijuna) was in there still in there. My only repond was I never got in to your sack.
See he careless wear he smokes his herb. It wouldn't suprise me if he lights up in the hospital.
Idaho is one of the state that hasn't legelize marijuna. Before I start to take care of him he got arrest for drugs. And the only illegel drug he does is marijuna.
Well he got some jail time. But because of his medical cost they had to release him he was way to spendy to keep in jail.
His medication is real high price.
So since that he thinks he pretty much thinks he has a free ride when it comes to maijuna because he is to expensive for them to house.
I also bought him a vanillia shake and green loose fitting short he could lounge around in.

My friend Qunella and I went to Sandpoint and did a little shopping. I went to the clearence area got a few outfits. I found a top for $1.00
Then I got a binder which will be made into a BOOK OF SHADOW and some things we need.
We went to FOSTER CROSSING and we ate at CAFE BODEGA. It wasn't horrible but I sure wouldn't write home about it.
Quenella found more dishes to her blue willow collection.
I didn't get a thing or nothing jump out and said take me home...

I've been off and on about doing Fitday but I've gotten some walking in. Thursday morning Liz son Paul has his court trail.

Coffee is on

Playing It Safe

It been a little while since I post on my blog.  Last post was about expanding my wings a bit in blogging.
I might some time but nothing in next few months or even possible longer. But for now I'll hide behind my written words and with finger cross a few photos. I still haven't gotten a new lap top to put up photos.

For a while I'm taking Friday and Saturday off of work, and sometime I have Wednesday off. This week looks fairly busy with my clients having appointment.
This up coming Tuesday Regis is having a hip replacement down in Sandpoint...I told him I would stay until they took him in to surgery. He want me to go in to the operating room and I had tell him there was no way they would and since this is such a small hospital and they didn't have a viewing area above. I had my tubes tight there after my last child.
He was worried something going wrong and I can do something about it. I'm glad he has trust in me. But I hopeful reassured him it will be ok.
So here is what I promised him that I would stay until he is ready to be rolled into the operating room.
Then I'm bring plenty to do...like letter writing, placing flyers for our cup coming coffee and chat for our pagan group, and my crafts.
Hip replacement will take about 2.5 hours, and recovery about 2 hours. Not sure what the rules on recovery for a hip replacement. But I said I would stop in his room for a few minutes before I head back home.
Anther thing he is worried about is that they will mess up on his medication. At one time he was in hospital for something and they total mess up his medication and he was hallucinating for entire month.
So since Qunella and I are going shopping on Wednesday I'll stop in and ask him if he getting all his meds.

So my paycheck will be a little smaller coming up. Since he will be in the hospital for about three days and I won't be paid for those days. And I'm not sure what they have plan for physical therphy and it might be at a rehab place.

I did some planning in my bullet journal. Some of the things I would like to accomplish is...Cut the strips for Sawyer and Betty locker hook rug, Share 2 post from my facebook page, I'll believe I'll do this on Thursday. Been cutting back on facebook I get tired of what I call angry people out there.
I have to high five my self...I been doing much better in my water intake...I been doing 32 ounce or
more each day
This up coming Saturday our pagan group will be going to a coffee shop, CALYPSO COFFEE and I'm doing up the flyers to post around.
Do a little bit of TWEETING both free though and off my blog.

I want to post this entire week....coffee is on

Need To Fine Tune It

I'm one who don't like to bitch or maybe a better way or expressing one self...I don't need or want to be a complainer or nag.
My dad grumble about everything from the time he got up and till he went to bed. Unless he was drinking.
My dad was nice drunk. He was "Good Time Pete" but when he start to sober up...look out and quickly became Mr Hyde..
Known people who had cuss jars...we had a grip jar...a nickle for bad attitude. Well my mom carried it in her purse. Over any little complaint and even if was a just grip. She would pull it out instant and there goes the nickle in.
Earlier today Murphy and I was in Super One and spaghetti sauce was on sale. Good price but the salt was 20%. I like to keep my salt under 10%.
I just couldn't bring my self to point it out.

I've been more of aware what been eating. I'm trying to keep my calorie count around 1,800 and if I stay just below 2,000 I'll still be in goal range.
But one thing I try to get the correct nutrition.

Tuesday we had our weigh in at T.O.P.S and I maintain consider there was a family reunion. Event are hard place when it base around eating.
Usual when I go out I have to set my self some bounds before I go, and stick to them. Or my eating would be out of control.

Well there always something to do. I haven't been working on any of my crafts, I mange to do a little around the place.
The other evening I clean the toilet.
I been thinking maybe I should adventure out in blogging. Add a little more every so often. Maybe a video of something or a pod cast. Confession time... I don't like my voice...my big boobs....my short legs
There a few papers I need to fill out from work. One I'm doing recently it about health and far as I can see there violating Hippa.
So there holding our pay checks until it filled out.
Any question I put "I don't know" and anything else I will put N/A oh there one I will say yes is my blood pressure.

I need to head to work. It's going to be a short day.

Coffee is on

Who Knows Had Sort Of Damage He Did

Regis annual Medicaid resert was today. Who knows how things went. First of I told him just mention that he is having a hip surgery on the 18th and will be in hospital for about 3 days.
Well he told her he would need 24 hour care for about a week.
Well medicaid doesn't work that way. They have a scoring system they use for every unit is worth 15 minutes.
Then each category has there minimum and maxium allotments.
But he told the nurse he falls down like 8 times a day. Also he told her that he grows web like feet. And he falls more then.
He ask him about if he been hallucinating recently. He says he hasn't.

I've start doing fit day again. And I made it under 1,800 calories and actual I was at 1,530 and for my nutrition I was happy with it.
The only one that was the lowest in my vitamin D and I get out side quite a bit. So I'm not sure how this is measured.

Weigh in tomorrow and since he had a family reunion I'm hoping to maintain...

Coffee is on

Now Maybe This Will Work.

Just finish up our family reunion...Like any reunion or any event there not much difference on how things goes.

Relatives sure comes in all sorts of ways. Confession time...Some I sure wouldn't pick for friends.

This reunion was on the small size 60 showed up.

Murphy went out and water the garden, and as he was coming out of the gate the decoration on top fell on him. Bruise up his arm and I gave him a cold compress to put on it. And a aspirin

Looks like our raspberries should be ready to pick any time.

It's well into the 90° (32°)

In our local T.O.P.S group I notice those who became kops (keeping off pounds sensible) who lost there weight and is at goal. The married ones and basically they told there husband to go to hell and they was going to eat there own way.

So they start to eat with common sense and got out and move more.

I found out one of those on line thing to keep track of what you eat helps.

I felt I did good at the reunion but I over did with the sweets this morning. But my eating goal I need to keep my daily calorie count between 1,800 to 2,000.

I've been doing my water intake over 24 oz daily. I know I need to increase that, and more movement.

I'm going to do some juicing and add to a smoothie and take it to lunch.

I know this won't happen on daily, this needs to happen 3 days a week.

I didn't make my last goal. By end of July my weight lost goal is to be down to 220. (99.7) To complete this goal I need to loose 3 (1.3)

I know this isn't end of it.

Coffee is on

June 2017 Check In

Isn't It all ok to be an airhead at times. I usual keep track of our weather but for unknown reason except being and airhead. I keep a journal for the weather. For some odd reason I lost some days in June, and to be quite honest quite a few of them.

June 3^rd was hottest day at 90° (32°)

June 16^Th was coldest day at 44° (6°)

The biggest weather event was our big gust of wind on June 28^Th.

I've misplace my pedometer so keeping track of my steps went also to way side

Trying to figure out what to high light in June. Still mange to put away $20 toward DAISY and I do this each month. But still I'm willing to match any donation up to $50.

Still been putting $20 toward for my future ceramic shop in the basement.

Much as how Medicaid handles in home care, which is ran with no common sense. It gives me a check and if something happen to Murphy. I could take care of my life. And I'm great-full for who I got for clients.

So $20 goes into anther jar for my future ceramic shop. That once I hit 60 years old. And that won't be full time either.

April was the month and I did a goal of loosing right round 20 pounds by July 4^Th. I didn't make it. Right now I weight in 223.75 (101) and I just did anther goal and I would like to weigh in at 220 (99)

Then the first of August I will reset a goal for future weight lost. Not sure what it will be.

It seem usual a on line weight lost program that keep track of what you one eat. It a lease helps me to be on track.

This weekend my side if having a family reunion. Usual I feel like an outside, but I still go.

There communication between three parts of our mind, CONSCIOUS SUBCONSCIOUS AND UNCONSCIOUS MIND 

So I like to run once month, BLUE MIX from past blog post.

You are inner-directed.

You are independent: you have a strong desire to have time to yourself. You are philosophical: you are open to and intrigued by new ideas and love to explore them. And you are reserved: you are a private person and don't let many people in.

Your choices are driven by a desire for organization.

You are relatively unconcerned with both achieving success and tradition. You make decisions with little regard for how they show off your talents. And you care more about making your own path than following what others have done.

Coffee is on  

Should I Say It Amazingly Odd

I been told the major arcana in tarot deck matches up with the old Hebrew letters of there alphabet. They have 22 letters and there are 22 major arcana.
I took Liz to have a reading...(Since I don't use real names) It came up very interesting. So I can only give a quick run down.
Well he was spot on and nothing was every said. See Liz dad died was her everything and her life pretty much start to crumble.
See she had quite a bit of trouble with her two son. For some reason it was decided to a reading on her son Paul (Remember I don't use real names) and the STRENGTH and there is lion and it the relationship how we handle the beast in us...and Paul made the statement about the demon beast in him and he needs to drink to quite it down.
I'm not familiar with any of the eastern tarot deck. He did a three flip up and the schizophrenia came up. And also the reader said Paul had a horrible event happen to him when her was 14 and hasn't dealt with it.
Liz has never lied to me. Confession time...At first I wonder if all what she was saying was true. She consistent and I know she doesn't change her stories from one person to anther or time.
Well to find out Liz older son held his brother Paul down and shot him up with heroin.
Not sure if heroin or the act of someone agaist your will forcing something apon you, which had the bigger effect.
So she went home and a little later on told her son about the reading. Which I will post at later date.

I start to draw on anther tarot card this time I'm working on FOUR WANDS I have to ideal on how I sort of want to this.
One... I want to have a parade float and heading toward a castle.
Two...I want to draw an older rig leaving and old run down place and head to a beautiful flower garden .
For now I need to take a break and something more clearly will come.

This week I haven't been doing any part of fitday which I keep track of my calories. I been trying to keep a mental food journal. At the summer soltice and our up coming family reunion which will happen this weekend.
So eating been a little wack out. But for my work lunch I still eat four health choices and dinner still watch my portion size.
Once the reunion over I'm going back to using fitday.

Coffee is on

Never Ending Circle

A little more on our summer soltice. This time we did a servel circle the first circle we had the CRONE and our priestess up by our alter.
And I believe they where 5 cirles behind. I was in the third one but because we didn't have enough so the 4th one wasn't filled. I got the south corner which represent fire.
I don't know even what I said open or closing.
We had a walk around singing or chanting something like..A circle with in circle will not end...
Pagan like other faith have there version of communion. But first we let the earth take part in communion pouring bread, and we had cheese cake for this. Some one donated a bottle of mead for this and spinkle it on the ground.
So clock wise we past both plate and chalice around and sending the person nest to you. My blessing was to person next me was "I bless you with many joys of life" and "bless it be"
And it was pretty much done...

I just finish up my queen swords and about ready to start on four wands, which represents celebration, excitment, and freedom
I sort of what I want to represent celebration. I know the rest will come.

Spend most of the day at Liz and Regis has the medicaid nurse coming on the 10th but he has his hip operated on the 18th. And being so close I know the paper work won't be sent in before the 18th. So I'm thinking it would be wise to have the medicaid nurse come out after the operation.

I'll try to go into to it a little more tommrow or next day. There this guy who can real read tarot cards. He read Liz and was so spot on.
See for some reason my shoulder is giving me some issue and I'm going to set in the tub.

Coffee is on

Senses To The Univere

Our local pagan group SPAIRFITEREA celebrate a late summer solstice, which to me sound to scientific. A lot of time it know as LITHA and there no wrong or right way to celebrate such an event.
But there is one rule "WARM NONE" which there tentacles and our conscience and sub-conscience can be our guide for this.
We ate, drink, share, and worship. To me a best part of any celebration is to have fun.
I've been ask what they do in pagan religious service. Each group or faith will do it different and even in our group things do change up.
There the prep work of getting the circle ready and tools one needs to use.
I would 3 steps one need to do...Mark out and Claim your area....basic manors with god and goddess goes a long ways...please, thank you, and your welcome.
and recognizes each corner.
Clean it, set up what one may need to hold a ritual, and seal it from any unknown entities.
Then your ready to use your circle for a pagan ritual.
Maybe a little later on I will share more on a circle. And also other way we may tap into our spiritual guides who or what they may be.

Question time...why do celebrating and working hard makes one tired? Need to catch up on such things is every day life. Right now the dryer is going.
Had to get food. Even if there was plenty of eats at the celebration.
Pagans come from all sort of back grounds. It pretty safe bet when Monday comes around we will be heading to our jobs.

I notice it been a while since any funds came forward toward DAISY and remember I match up to $50. Each month I put an extra $20 in can toward her.
Still can't post photos. Irritating! that what it is. I still have part of my bonus coming. See the in-home care company I work for gives out bonus twice a year.
But because there been people who don't or didn't file there taxes. Now they hold part of our bonus and I knew I had to send them a copy of my taxes, and it was send last Thursday or Friday and I'm not sure when I mail them. I'm trying to recall what I got and what percentage did I receive.
Well it doesn't matter. It will come. And I shall get a different lap top.

Coffee is on