Sunday, October 29, 2017

Fear At Both Ends

When we were younger the odd things we fear. I was horrify of the wind, now I find it exciting because it bring changes. Well when I was young I was scared of success and or failure. Confession time...I am still afraid of both success or failure. In school I felt the most comfortable with a B or C in school.

I use bullet journal for planning and goals. Last week I believe I had 69 things and only did 15. Not a very good average. But it better then zero. Next week I'm doing less this up coming week.
But I did get all my November pages done, in my bullet journal

Murphy is doing better but he is quite a bit of pain. Although I believe a hip x-ray would be a good ideal. I think he has arthritis. 
So we cut a little off the log we drug up the other day. And we cut some of log into firewood length.
Just finish up hierophant card. I thought this one would be quite difficult and to my surprise it came quite easy for me.
I've drawed the three pentacles and this one is not coming to me all that easy. Pentacles are things that deals with reality, substance, and grounding. Then numbers three your dealing on joinery, communication and creativity. And then three of pentacles praise, recognition and completion. Coming up with artist interpretation.

I only weigh my self twice weekly, on Sunday and Tuesday. I like to weigh in the morning. But this morning I didn't. But this evening I did and I was happy what the scales read. So usual ones gain some water weight though out the day.

I been watching the old gothic soap opera, DARK SHADOW the one with vampire BARNABAS COLLINS. This show was on when I was in grade school and it scared me.

Coffee is on


  1. Gee, that will keep you warm for a bit. Do you have a log splitter or do you do it the old-fashioned way with a maul and wedges? Hard work!

  2. That's a very big log, it should cut up into enough firewood for quite a while.
    I was happy enough with the B's in school, but I preferred the A's. I got an F for French though, disliked the language and hated the teacher. Latin was easier for me.

  3. “My name is Victoria Winters...”. Yes, I’m a fan of Dark Shadows, glad you’re enjoying

  4. Hari OM
    I kinda identify with that 'settle for being a bit behind' security; staying out of the limelight. Was forced to overcome it somewhat during my corporate career though, and now I strive always for the best I can do. May not match others' best, but it wall always be my best... YAM xx

  5. I was absolutely NUTS about Dark Shadows when I was a kid! As a matter of fact, DS plays a small role in the book I'm writing now (the story's-it's set in 1969-protagonist always makes sure to run home from school to watch it.).
    As a small bit of trivia, the girl (now woman) who played Barnabus' sister, Sarah (Sharon Smith), lives pretty close to me.
    No, we have not met.

  6. Isn't that interesting how some of our fears change and others stay the same.

  7. I remember watching Dark Shadows when it was being shown on TV, never missed it.

  8. Ah, fear of success. I wonder how many people have that. I'm sure quite a few.

  9. I have to admit... I´ve never heard of the series Dark Shadows. One of the few things I´m "too young" for, I guess. Funny feeling. Or maybe it simply wasn´t a hit in Germany?

  10. I think you did great with your "to-do" list.

  11. I am not a fearful person. If there is a danger, I feel nothing it's like a sort of black out. It comes when everything is over !

  12. I really likes your blog! You have shared the whole concept really well and very beautifully soulful read!
    Thanks for sharing


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